Just.A.Pit.Stop

We Are One

2012-02-07T18:02:00.001+08:00

As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand

And the only thing we know
Is things don't always go
The way we planned

But you'll see every day
That we'll never turn away
When it seems all your dreams come undone

We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more than we are
We are one

If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am?

Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I just one part
Of some big plan?

Even those who are gone
Are with us as we go on
Your journey has only begun

Tears of pain, tears of joy
One thing nothing can destroy
Is our pride, deep inside
We are one

We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky
One family under the sun

All the wisdom to lead
All the courage that you need
You will find when you see
We are one

Music by Tom Snow, lyrics by Marty Panzer & Mark Feldman
Performed by Cam Clarke, Charity Sanoy, Ladysmith Black Mambazo & Chorus

2weeks holiday

2012-02-01T03:20:00.000+08:00

have been doing nothing. should study for the end block exam. T^T

Baby bird

2011-08-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

Do you know that tall tree, like a coconut tree but the stalk is red? I don't know what's it name. So my house had one and it was so tall, until one day my Dad cut it down -.- and the area looked clean and fresh and bright lol. Okay that's not the point. I did tell him not to cut down 'cz there's a bird nest up there and probably there's baby birds. The next morning my Mom said to me there's a tiny little baby bird in the nest that fell together with the tree. -.- 'Dad!' It's so tiny and barely has feathers. I bet it just came out from the egg. There were 3 other eggs still fine and looked cold. lol. Dad told to left the nest on the ground hoping that its mom would see but I was scared of cats eating it. So we put it higher on the swings, and gave it rice hoping it'd eat by itself. >.< I don't know how to nurse a baby bird, too scared to even touch or lift it 'cz I might broke its bones, I do not know. The baby bird didn't eat the rice at all and my brother suggested to dig worms but no one take the move duhh. Poor you baby bird. I wanna bring it inside but Dad said let its mom to find it herself. ㅠㅠ The eggs meanwhile, like I said, looked so cold and probably..dead DX. My Mom google-ed on how to nurse a baby bird and according to this one site, 90-95% baby birds WILL EVETUALLY DIE even if you try so hard in taking care of them. The next morning when I looked into the nest, the baby bird already R.I.P. Bye2 baby bird, I'm gonna miss you and see you in heaven.

p/s: remember before you cut down a tree, look up if there's bird nest...bukan sarang burung takde burung yep.. :>

Sunggyu (Infinite) - Because cover by Jason Lim

2011-08-05T09:41:00.007+08:00

This is awesome, good vocal and he does look like the real Sunggyu a lot, right? Go listen to his other cover songs too, that is if you can listen to kpop songs duh.

Yes, I like Infinite too much, thank you.

I RECEIVED MY OTT

2011-08-05T00:01:00.001+08:00

Just saying. lol Selamat berpuasa :)

Day 10 - 7 Things that matter the most

2011-08-01T00:14:00.003+08:00

1. i just hope my Dad gets well soon right now. ㅠㅠ no wonder i kept dreaming bad things last few days. he's going to work tomorrow he said, maybe half day. sobs. he worked...too much.

2. my mom and my sister too, get well soon. ladies, you should practice taking adequate amount of calcium since young ok.

3. months of holidays i don't even touch the books. lol

4. i hope to finish with the TT forum by this week.

5. i hope i can maximize this time Ramadhan.

6. that the cards i send to my indo friend, arrive safely.

7. that my trolls, ummu and su, don't you forget about me. lol

p/s: Happy fasting! :>

Day 9 - 7 Films

2011-07-31T03:28:00.003+08:00

Feel weird huh?

1. Lord of The Rings - any of them, do i have to explain?

2. Scott Pilgrim - you can kick yourself if you don't find this movie stupidly amusing as i am. oh and it's going to show in astroHD this month?

3. Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows - the end of almost all of us childhood. watched 3times in a week, still feel wanna watch again. will wait for the lanun one.

4. Jiu - LOL they just aired the very 1st episode last 2days? have to wait some more, new released Japanese movies/dramas are not easy to get, they are really strict for their copyrighted whatsoever. Just like Arashi's.

5. Detective Conan - Hehe another Japanese release ;P

6. 3 Idiots - Funny, and contain lots of values. ;>

7. 9/Nine - because I've just watched it with Mom. Those little things are cute. ;3

p/s: it's time to change the blog header..maybe later.

p/ss: i dreamt again, that my Dad's gone. i don't wanna sleep, it is a nightmare. i know Dad is not very well. i keep running here and there where he is just to look if he's fine. he told me to stop it, lol.

p/sss: ramadhan is near the corner. im so excited! can go tarawikh with mom and dad. ;>

Day 7 - 7 Foods

2011-07-28T23:00:00.003+08:00

Cannot think much, I've just had my meal -.-''

1. ketupat and rendang. LOL. i will get that soon. yay!

2. soft tofu stew. try it, you'll like it. ;D oh and it's a korean food.

3. sashimi. japanese food, raw fish yeah!

4. mom's curry noodle

5. chicken pau

6. chocolate. i haven't eaten any since sem break started O:

7. sushi. my bestfriend promised to make for me woot!

Day 6 - 7 Places You Want to Go

2011-07-27T23:53:00.002+08:00

1. Mecca

2. Japan

3. Disneyland

4. UIA

5. South Korea

6. McD

7. Bedroom

Day 5 - 7 Wants

2011-07-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

1. Go on Hajj :3 With mom and dad if possible.

2. A new laptop XD my Chunnie is not even 4yr old. He's already been formatted, once but still... I need to work with PS, it's too heavy he can't handle it. The uncle also give it Win7, i have to downgrade later. sobs, Chunnie i still love you. heh

3. Wacom Intuos4 nak nak nak! I can save from using drawing blocks or a4 papers. means that i can save more trees! ^^

4. Go to Japan. :D I want to see falling sakura. I want to go to Tokyo dome. I want to meet Arashi heh

5. Trolling with my trolls again ♥ ♥ ♥ last sunday was awesome and i miss you guys already :3

6. I want my OTT now. I can't wait for it anymore. XD

7. Washing my car at this hour because he's too dirty, full with dirt and dust. Maybe tomorrow...

p/s: i want to marry lol

Day 4 - 7 Fears

2011-07-25T23:34:00.001+08:00

Okay, i missed a day because i went to KL and too tired to write an entry. *kickme*

So, 7 fears..

1. ALLAH S.W.T

2. FROGS, TOADS or anything like them. I feel so lucky the last time we didn't have to dissect any of these slimy, rocky look things, or whatever they are.

>.<

3. BIG cockroaches because they can fly to you when you try to kill them. T.T

4. BIG lizards because they are FAT and they crawl and you can see what's inside their body. T.T

5. Fear.. when your loves gone. People die everyday...

6. If my deeds is not enough for me to pass into Firdausi.

7. When my Dad gets angry. LOL

Day 3 - 7 Loves

2011-07-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

1. I love my family and my friends. lol, who doesn't. I love Allah and Prophet SAW.

2. I love cats. aren't they adorable too much? xD

3. I love sports. :3 Just name it.

4. I love gadgets. lol

5. I love eating. XD

6. I love my car.

7. I love INFINITE. I love INSPIRITS. I love HOYA. hehe

Day 2 - 7 Hates

2011-07-22T06:15:00.002+08:00

Urmm.. I already said what I hate in this post. I used 'dislike' instead of 'hate' but don't they have the same meaning? -.- No?

1. I hate empty spaces, I hate living alone, sometimes.

2. I hate whoever abuses animals or does cruelty against animals or does anything that inhumanely is harmful upon animals, okay, exclude those slaughtering cows, chickens for food. But..but..eat cats? Yes, there are people who eat cats, I don't even dare to give a second look at those fried cats pictures. -.-;; Like, there are LOTS OF OTHER THINGS YOU CAN EAT why CATS? They are PETS not FOOD.

how can you eat this furry adorable cute thing? HOW? TELL ME?!

Not only cats..dogs, elephants, pandas, as long as they are in ANIMAL category, we shouldn't abuse them. Ok?

3. I hate whoever people yang cuba memecah belah keluarga orang lain. Ok, this happened to my family few years ago. That person is like menyemarakkan lagi api yang dah sedia marak because he never apologize. I know my parents hurt alot because of what had happened. Besides, that person favorite color is purple, so you now know why I don't really favor purple. *okay, this is random* But it looks like I can't run away from that color -.- . Why KOD is purple. Why Hoya likes purple. Why at the moment I write this, I am wearing purple shirts.

4. I hate people who don't give an effort to understand me.

5. I hate when someone interrupts me when I am drawing. heh. Not drawing TEETH ok.

6. I hate when people wake me up harshly..like 'BAHHH', or 'OI BANGUN OI'. Can you wake me up nicely please, or I'll get moody throughout the day and you'll get the consequence. Wake up a person is by touching their legs, not head or body. Or just say their names, softly no shouting. That's why, I have never woken up kids at camps during roll call, because you have to shout or use that whatever mic is available.

7. I hate when people don't know how my voice tone is like, duhh, the way I talk is like that, my tone when I talk is like that and I AM LIKE THAT, I AM NOT EVEN MAD.

Eeeee, I should stop talking about what I hate because I hate it. So hateful O: Hating also eats your energy, yes?

7 days meme :3

2011-07-21T02:09:00.007+08:00

I got this from Syu neechan :) Since I'm bored heh, it's a daily meme LOL i will try my best to do it in 10 days. XD

Day 1 - 7 Secrets
Day 2 - 7 Hates
Day 3 - 7 Loves
Day 4 - 7 Fears
Day 5 - 7 Wants
Day 6 - 7 Places You Want to Go
Day 7 - 7 Foods
Day 8 - 7 Books
Day 9 - 7 Films
Day 10 - 7 Things that matter the most

Ok, day 1..7 secrets; i think this going to be the hardest since..i am sort of don't have much secrets haha!

1. I can see..ghosts. well not always, sometimes. Usually they will appear like a flash, only a brief. But most of the times, I hear weird things. :3 and once, that 'thing' touched my head when I was half asleep..that's when I was 18. Creepy?

2. I tried to commit suicide, twice, during my early teenage age. T^T My teenage life was terrible, my bestfriend also attempted the same thing but failed. *okay, insaf* Please kids, don't try this anywhere.

3. I always fight with boys when I was in kindergarten and primary school. I shouted to them when they teased me. So they called me 'singa'. Sometimes, people from the next block could hear my voice. Haha! Funny.*darah muda*. I am too shame to face any of them, because they said I have changed and am too nice. -.-

4. I have a huge pink teddy bear, given by my Dad for my SPM. But my nieces are jealous i don't know, they tried to snatch it from me. Even give it a name. -.- Although I don't like pink, everything parents give must be treasured,okay? :>

5. Pink colour is growing in me. xP Well, people love to give me pink stuffs, that's the truth.

6. I wear spectacles since standard 2. So young, it's genetic.. T.T

7. I write this meme in almost 3 hours HAHAHA i don't know my own secrets xP

Masalah wanita

2011-07-20T00:56:00.004+08:00

Aku memang tak nak ungkit. Sebab tu bukan style aku, sebab bila aku ungkit aku rasa macam bersalah gila jatuh gaung pun rasa bersalah lagi. Aku bukan jenis yang berkira, lagi kalau pasal duit. Aku rasa orang yg berkira sgt ni, pasal duit la, dia akan rasa duit dia cepat habis, cepat gelabah bila duit dah takde. Tapi aku tak rasa tu sebab aku tak macam tu. Kalau aku pernah berkira2 dengan sape2 mintak maaf la ek, aku tak betoi kot time tu. Tapi aku nak cakap la kat hang, aku rasa nak deal dengan hang la paling susah, manusia yang keras hati susah nak cakap, kalau aku cakap bahasa sanskrit pun hang takkan paham. Aku tau la sekarang kenapa kakak2 aku yg dua tu ada masalah dengan hang. Kalau boleh, nak bawak pegi mahkamah skali gaduh.*tsk masalah org pompuan ni payah betoi* Sebab tu kot aku byk cmpur dgn abang2 aku lagi. heh *sbb tu prangai cm jantan haha*. Hang tak prasan lagi ke yang kakak2 tu dah byk berkorban dan bertahan dgn perangai hang. Takpa, aku bukan nak kata aku ni baik sgt, tapi at least aku tak take for granted dgn segala nasihat yang dorg bagi. Aku tau la hang dah kaya sangat buat business, gaji pun boleh tahan tapi tu nikmat Allah bagi, aku harap hang tak buta terus. Tak pasai nnti aku kena bagi mata aku kat hang, tak kuasa aku. Nanti dah susah mula terhegeh2 carik aku. Ptuii~

Wish

2011-07-13T06:28:00.004+08:00

I freaking want Wacom Intuos4 8x13 for my birthday pressie.

Ok fine, Wacom Bamboo Fun 6x9 is cool.

Anyone? xD

p/s: 1) urmm what? you don't know what is that? Go google. :>

p/s: 2) i wish there is someone rich read this entry and 'terbuka hati' to buy me one. HAHA. ok, slap me.

p/s: 3) 'Watanabe Ken', thanks to someone, that name keeps appearing in my head. XP

upside down

2011-07-10T02:13:00.002+08:00

One and two drops. Lying, it was more than that.

Ok chill, life is fun and enjoy it! 8D

You better saving

2011-07-09T19:23:00.003+08:00

Why? Because the next few years you have to use them for your studies. Have to saving okay, not only when you're getting married. Government gives you scholarship for you, no me, to use on... any study related things. Crazy, i want a new shoes, i want new clothes, i want new jeans, i want a boyfriend. HAHAHA. To think of it, i don't think i can handle if i have a boyfriend. i just..am not prepared for it, yet. Whatsmore I can't bear to spend my money on my boyfriend, yet. Hehe. Like I've said, have to save money for my future. :3 Seems stingy? No, i spend them mostly on my family during holidays. Heee~

Heh, it sounds like i am not gonna use any money during this sem break. xD i hope my plan works, my troll partners.

p/s: this a note to myself

Hating is a sickness

2011-07-08T04:30:00.002+08:00

Yeah I tweeted that to someone-where-everyone-called-him Cho PD. I think I am very sick. You know how to pretend that you're not but actually you're. Ummu said 'hate' is a strong word so I'm gonna use 'dislike' in this post although I mean the other word, got it? Because I don't want to really emphasize it, whatever.

I dislike how I have to say that I like what I've been doing so far because if I don't say so, questions keep coming and I'm tired to hear the same things and repeat the same answers.

I dislike when I must follow others' steps//orders when I have my own ways to settle things and they're my problems. Oh this has nothing to do with those manual books full with instructions bla bla.

I dislike when I want to do something so bad that I will die if I don't, people say 'No'. That's not rebellious, it's teenager's curiosity and determination.

I dislike to say I'm not hurt but it actually hurts so much, idek why people ask even though he/she already know how I feel.

I dislike going to mall full with kids having their times like there's no homework or school the next day. Be good and stay home.

I dislike when someone acts to know me the best but he/she is not even close to. That someone has to read back my manuals and be with me for another 10 years because I am hard like that.

I dislike ......................................... (fill whatever you want because I dislike writing this post)

p/s: I am heart sick, heal me~

Happy Birthday

2011-06-17T02:30:00.006+08:00

cr: tumblr.com

happy birthday to June-ians, including two of my sisters, the brat nino who is still look 17 even though he's 28 -.- i am not lying.......... and my twitter spazzers, joan and laura. sorry too many people i know were born this month, i can't remember all.

i am having a long productive sem break, very productive even can build layers of adipose tissue. :< i miss studying last minute during the exam. hurhurhur..

Kerana 10 minit

2011-02-19T20:53:00.006+08:00

Semangat dah, bangun awal2 pagi sebab nak test kete. First time bawak, berdebar2 la jugak sebab takut tercalar ke apa. Bawak la gi klinik yang tiap2 bulan kena pegi. Smpai dalam pukul 8.50am. Sebelum tu tanya la mak, ada tak kupon parking kat dalam dashboard, mak cakap takde. Gamble je la. Masuk la klinik. Tunggu punya tunggu, rasa tak sedap hati pulak, pegi la jenguk kete. Tu dia!! Cepat dan tangkas mcm belangkas DBI buat keje, duit sape tak nak kan? Nasib baik rm20. Kalau beratus memang dah hangin satu badan. -.-''

Tapi yang lagi sakit hatinya, balik2 ayah kata ada kupon dlm dashboard. -.-" Check2, memang ada. Jadinya? Salah sendiri tak check. Cesss!! Melayang duit abah. :3

Sekali tu bukak la channel korea ape ntah kat tv. Tengok music video ni:

Before the Dawn - Infnite

Yang bestnya, subtitle dia dalam bahasa melayu. Before the dawn jadi Sebelum Waktu Subuh. LOL. XD Nasuha pun gelak golek2 je baca translation kat tv tu. Kikiki~

2 AM + 1/2 HOUR

2010-12-27T02:30:00.000+08:00

1. Abah dah bagitahu awal2 lagi sebelum masuk main campus..Sekarang apa nak buat? -.-'

Tak tau la nak buat macam mana yang pasti kena solve cepat2.

2. I'm here because dipaksa... (ye ke?)

Cold, and can't sleep.

Esok

2010-12-02T19:59:00.004+08:00

Takutnya ak nak face tomorrow. Takut jadik macam hari tu. >.<"

Oh encik dentist yang handsome, jangan marah saya lagi.

Once in the morning

2010-11-06T09:36:00.003+08:00

S: "Good morning"

Dr: "Good morning. Have a seat."

N: "Choose one, as usual."

S: pointing at one colour

N: "Red?"

S: "Yea."

Dr: "Okay, let see, bite."

"Do you feel any progress, rasa gigi makin rapat tak?"

S: " Not much."

Dr: "A little, hmm? Your lower teeth move so slow than the uppers. Okay, open."

S: "Aaaa..wait. Ummm.. one of the bracket is.... out."

Dr: Looking at the bracket

"Ooooo... bad. Bad. Rosak, rosak. What have you done? What did you eat?" (Nada: marah)

S: ".........................."

Bracket tu belah kiri, aku makan most all the time belah kanan.. macam mane?*blurr*

Dr: "This is bad, you know. We have to delay 3, 4 months before your retainer, okay?"

S: "......................"

Dr: Talking to the nurse while doing his job

S: "....................."

10 minutes passed

Dr: "Okay, done. We have to straight back your teeth and later close the gap there, okay? See you again."

S: "Okay..thank you Dr."

Dr: "Okay, thank you. Bye!"

S: "Bye!"

At the counter

N: "Rm100"

S: Sambil hulur duit

" The next time I come here, do I need to pay extra?"

N: "No, no. Just come like usual, tapi you don't have to pay la."

S: "Okay."

.........................................................................................................

1. Jaga la braces tu elok2, wlaupun bukan salah sndiri, buat2 la rasa bersalah..

2. Makan tu berpada2.. =(

3. Pagi2 lg dah kena marah..sob3..so jgn la buat hal pagi2 ye.. =P

2 of 2

2010-10-31T12:59:00.004+08:00

Alhamdulillah.. ;)

*ignore the background..hehe..*

p/s: semalam bru prasan, who is a true friend and who is not...

Sweet Eighteen

2010-10-19T00:55:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to my one and only little brother;

Muhammad Luqman

May Allah always bless hang

Moga panjang umur murah rezeki

Study hard and smart

Do your very best for the upcoming exam

Learn by heart, ikhlaskan hati masa nak study

Betulkan niat balik apa tujuan hang blaja tinggi2

Jangan stress2 sangat

Last but not least, jangan nak paw aku lebih2, ak pn student gak.. =P

Dia..

2010-10-18T02:01:00.002+08:00

Apa yang penting ialah pandangan Allah, bukan pandangan yang lain.. =)

Misi hampir tercapai, walaupun pelbagai dugaan dihadapi..InsyaAllah, tak lama lagi.. ^^

S.H.Y.

2010-10-08T20:34:00.003+08:00

Rasulullah SAW pernah bersabda yang bermaksud: "Sifat malu merupakan salah satu cabang daripada cabang-cabang Iman" - Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim

Dah tau tu, nak buat maksiat lagi? Tak malu ke dengan Allah?

Worse..

2010-09-17T03:32:00.002+08:00

Not worse..

The MOST worse exam yang pernah di amik..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!!

Tak pernah rasa tunggang terbalik macam ni..

Tu la maen byk sgt.. ~_~

Harap2 lulus...

Okay? lulus!!!

T_____________T

p/s: esok exam pun bleh bukak blog..tsk! tsk!

Thank You Allah

2010-09-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

I was so far from you
Yet to me you were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from you
Ooooo Allah, you brought me home
I thank You with every breath I take.

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

I never thought about
All the things you have given to me
I never thanked you once
I was too proud to see the truth
And prostrate to you
Until I took the first step
And that’s when you opened the doors for me
Now Allah, I realized what I was missing
By being far from you.

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank you for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
And did you give me hope
O Allah, I wanna thank you
I wanna thank You for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
I wanna thank You for bringing me home

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.

By: Maher Zain

p/s: Good luck rakan2 seperjuangan, Dentistry 4th batch and others yang bakal amik exam. Semoga tenang dan diterangiNya masa jawab nnti ye? =)

Allah sayang kita...

2010-08-30T14:31:00.004+08:00

Adik dengar kawan kat sekolah cakap, Allah sayang kita. Tapi adik tak paham, macam mana kawan adik boleh tahu Allah sayang kita? Allah ada bagi hadiah kat dia ke? Knape adik x dapat pun? Adik bingung la..

"Mak, tadi kawan adik cakap Allah sayang kita semua. Macam mana kawan adik tu tau, mak? Adik tak dapat hadiah pun.."

"Adik, Allah sayang sangat kita semua. Allah sayang kita melebihi kita sayangi Allah. Allah dah bagi banyak hadiah kat kita dik, dalam pelbagai bentuk dan cara."

"Hadiah apa, mak?"

"Allah beri kita tubuh dan nyawa yang tak dapat pun kita beli kat mana2 pun kat dunia ni. Allah bagi sekali je nyawa kat kita, dan kita mesti la jaga nyawa ni baik2. Tubuh kita ni pula ibarat pinjaman. Kita mestilah pulangkan balik kepada Allah. Macam adik kena pulangkan barang yang adik pinjam dari kawan, mestilah pulangkan dalam keadaan seperti yang adik ambil. Jadi, adik kena la jaga tubuh badan adik baik2. Jangan lupa makan, jangan lupa tidur, jangan main kat tempat2 bahaya, tau?"

"Baiklah,mak.Hmmm.. Apa lagi yang Allah ada bagi kat kita, mak?"

"Allah bagi kita hidup di muka bumi ni cukup dengan segala kemudahan. Tau tak kemudahan apa? Bukan kemudahan bas atau sebagainya. Allah dah ciptakan tumbuh-tumbuhan untuk kita berteduh, memberi sumber rezeki macam buah-buahan. Allah juga dah sediakan udara untuk kita bernafas tanpa batasan. Allah dah sediakan lautan untuk kita mencari rezeki. Allah dah jadikan bukit2, gunung2..semua untuk kehidupan di bumi ni. Kalau setiap kali adik masuk tandas awam, adik kena bayar 20sen, betul? Macam mana kalau Allah mintak adik bayar 20sen setiap kali adik bernafas udara yang Allah dah sediakan? Kalau macam tu, banyaknya hutang kita dengan Allah, dik. Tapi Allah sayang kita. Allah tak mintak pun kita bayar semua tu."

"Betul tu, mak. Adik rasa bersyukur disayangi Allah."

"Bagus la, dik. Allah sayang kita semua. Macam mak kata tadi, Allah bagi hadiah kat kita dalam pelbagai bentuk dan cara. Tak semestinya Allah sayang kita dengan hanya memberi kemudahan dan kesenangan, tapi jugak dalam bentuk kesusahan."

"Macam mana pulak tu mak?"

"Bila kita dilanda kesusahan atau musibah, orang mesti cakap; Allah tak sayang aku. Knape aku kena berhadapan dengan kesusahan begini? Macam2 lagi kata2 ketidakpuashatian dan keluhan pasal kesusahan yang menimpa diri.

Tapi, Allah sebenarnya sayang sangat kat kita, sebab tu Allah timpakan kita dengan sedikit musibah. Bila kita terima musibah Allah tu dengan tenang dan sabar, Allah akan menghapuskan dosa2 kita yang lepas. Macam para sahabat Nabi, bila Allah tak turunkan kesusahan kat mereka, mereka sedih. Sebab dengan kesusahan tu, dosa2 mereka diampunkan.

Allah jugak beri kita sedikit kesusahan sebab Allah nak kuatkan iman kita. Bila kita ditimpa musibah, kat Allah la kita kena mengadu dan berdoa. Kalau kita sentiasa dalam keadaan senang, takut nanti kita lupa pulak kat Allah."

"Jadi, kalau adik sakit atau susah, tak baik mengadu kat mak ke?"

"Bukan tak baik atau tak boleh mengadu. Boleh saja adik mengadu kat mak. Tapi, sebaik2nya adik kena sabar dan tabah berdepan dengan sakit adik, dan paling pertama adik kena buat, berdoa kat Allah dulu agar cepat sembuh. Kemudian, kalau adik tak tahan, mengadu la kat mak. Sebab manusia ni tak boleh hidup sorang2. Kena la saling membantu."

"Baik. Sekarang adik dah paham. Terima kasih, mak."

"Sama2 dik. Sekarang adik dah tau, Allah sayang semua, termasuklah adik. Mak nak tanya pulak, adik sayang kat Allah tak?"

Adik pun senyum menandakan dia sayangkan Allah.

Tepuk dada tanya la hati, adakah anda sayangkan Allah? Kalau ya, kenapa masih melakukan kemungkaran?

p/s: Kak Afzan ada pesan; bila kita spend masa untuk Allah, Allah akan spend masa untuk kita. Contohnya, dalam masa kita study, kita menghadiri majlis ilmu atau majlis pengisian rohani niat kerana Allah S.W.T. InsyaAllah, masa yang terhad yang ada untuk kita study tu, lagi berkat dan lagi senang ilmu nak melekat kat otak. Sebab tu ada orang yang baca sekejap je boleh ingat tapi ada orang, baca topik yang sama 2-3hari tapi still x boleh nak ingat. =)

Benarkah Ibu?

2010-08-28T04:37:00.004+08:00

Benarkah bu?

Dia puji dan puja ibu

Dia rayu dan belai ibu

Katanya cintanya hanya untuk ibu

Benarkah bu?

Ibu terkhayal dengan pujukannya

Ibu terbuai dalam bicaranya

Ibu terlena oleh bisikannya

Benarkah bu?

Ibu tak kisah dia peluk ibu

Ibu izin dia sentuh jasad ibu

Ibu puas dapat buktikan setia ibu

Macam dia kata.. mahu bukti cinta dari ibu

Tapi benarkah bu?

Masa berlalu,

Hari ini lepas 9 bulan…

Pohon yang ibu dan lelaki tu tanam telah membuahkan hasil

Hari ini buah cinta kalian telah terzahir

Hari ini bukti kasih jejaka itu pada ibu telah lahir…

tapi benarkah bu?

Kenapa dia tidak sama menyambut kami?

Kemana dia telah pergi tidak azankan kami?

Mengapa ibu pun benci kami?

Sedangkan inilah semaian tanda cinta kalian?

Mengapa ibu?

Tak terasakah sakit dan perit

tak berbakikah kasih dan sayang dan

Tidak lagi kah ibu berTuhan?

Benarkah ibu?

Benarkah begitu?

adik cuma nak tanya je bu…..

cr: google image & the writer

2010-08-28T04:00:00.002+08:00

Aku malu..

Malu dengan Allah..

Malu dengan mak dan ayah..

Malu dengan diri sendiri..

Cukuplah dengan dosa2 yang telah aku lakukan..

Jangan diungkit lagi..

Kak Ain pesan;

"Ingat kebaikan orang lain, lupakan kebaikan diri sendiri.

Lupakan kesalahan orang lain, ingat kesalahan diri sendiri."

Tapi lumrah manusia..

Lupa kebaikan orang lain dan ingat kesalahan orang lain..

Don't judge the person from his/her past..

Apa yang dah berlalu, biarkan ia menjadi pengajaran..

Jangan diungkit........................

Bila hati berbisik...

2010-08-26T20:30:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah,

HambaMu yang kerdil dan hina memohon kepadaMu Ya Allah..

Janganlah Kau gelapkan pintu hatiku..

Terangkanlah aku dengan hidayahku..

Aku merasa diriku

tidak tertanggung dengan dosa-dosa yang telah aku lakukan..

Ya Allah,

Kuatkanlah peganganku..

Berikanlah aku kekuatan

untuk menempuh dunia sementara ini

yang penuh dengan dugaan..

Yang mungkin menyesatkan..

Ya Allah,

Jauhilah aku dari seksaan api nerakaMu Ya Allah..

Diri ini mungkin akan kembali kepadaMu

bila-bila masa..

Tapi hambaMu yang hina ini Ya Allah..

Penuh dengan dosa-dosa..

Cukupkah amalanku untuk dibawa?

Ya Allah..

Betapa aku tidak layak untuk syurgaMu..

Terimalah taubatku..

KepadaMu aku berserah..

KepadaMu aku akan kembali..

A Normal Human Being is..

2010-08-21T22:09:00.005+08:00

How I wish there's a time machine.

I'd go back to the day that has changed my life entirely.

Regretting is wasting of time.

I wish there's someone who can guide me, can always remind me.

I'm a normal human being, prone to do lots of mistakes.

O Allah, please help me.

Please always guide me.

Show me the true way, don't let the darkness seized my life.

O Allah, let me be amongst those under your protection, always under your guidance.

I believe on everything that You have written for me.

O Allah, help me meet someone who can guide me.

Someone who can lead me to the truth.

A true Muslim, who loves You and Rasulullah endlessly.

InsyaAllah, I know He always give the best for His loyal servants.

Because of you.. :3

2010-08-21T17:20:00.001+08:00

Because I love you my roomie.. =)

=D

2010-08-11T05:46:00.002+08:00

How's life?

~^^~

Fasting?

First time in Kuantan. Wohoo..Excited. XD

Salam Ramadhan semua. Moga puasa penuh. Hehehe..

This post is for my purplish roommate ;D

2010-07-26T20:53:00.003+08:00

Since kau x buat lagi one SHINee banner tuk aku, ni aku buat satu B2ST tuk kau. Purple wey~ wewiitt arr. =P Thanks for taking care of me masa aku sakit. :3

1,2,3..

2010-07-02T19:03:00.001+08:00

Lost 4 get back 3..

Guess what it is? XD

Kinology?? T____T

2010-06-28T01:38:00.008+08:00

THE RULES: Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to wipe out my answers and supply your own. After, choose some people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. Tag a bunch of people.

Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name followed by "ology".

~~~~~~~FOODOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. What is your salad dressing of choice?
salad pakai dress ke?

2. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
semua sit-down restoran halal aku suka

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
nasik la wey..makanan ruji org malaysia!

4. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
chicken, tuna, less cheese.. =)

5. What do you like to put on your toast?
jem strawberry

~~~~~~~TECHNOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. How many televisions are there in your house?
2 tapi 1 je bleh pakai

2. The color of your cell phone?
black

3. How long would it take you to look up who invented the Rubber Band?
dunno..want to know? go find it yourself.

4. Have any idea how many Megahertz your computer has?
tettttt!!! no..

~~~~~~~BIOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
right

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
hair, dead cell skin, teeth, nail

3. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
baldi yang penuh dgn air

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
nope

~~~~~~~CRAZYOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
no

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Siti Sakinah

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
don't know..let me think twice

~~~~~~~DUMBOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
one

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
?? belum lagi.hahaha

3. Last person you talked to??
ummu atiqah. XD

4. Last person you hugged?
my mom

~~~~~~~FAVORITOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. Season?
summer, maybe..

2. Holiday? Beach or Island?
beach

3. Day of the week?
everyday

4. Month?
january and november

~~~~~~~CURRENTOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. Missing someone?
no.

2. Mood?
disappointed + sad + guilty + mad + etc.

3. What are you listening to?
Come Back Again - Infinite

4. Watching?
?? this white sheeeeeeeeettt. XD

~~~~~~~RANDOMOLOGY~~~~~~~

1. First place you went this morning?
market

2. What's the last movie you saw?
aaaaaa~ what a? can't remember..

3. Do you smile often?
depend..nanti org igt aku gila pulak

~~~~~~~OTHER-OLOGY~~~~~~~

1. Do you always answer your phone?
depend..hahaha!

2. It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Shiema or Su'aidah Aisyah. hahaha!

3. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
green

4. Do you own a digital camera?
no

5. Have you ever had a pet fish?
no

6. Favorite Christmas song(s):
none

7. What's on your wish list for your birthday?
Chelsea's jersey , LG lollipop/ Corby, a car.. hahaha!!

8. Can you do push ups?
can

9. Can you do a chin up?
huh?

10. Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
feelingless

11. Do you have any saved texts?
yes

12. Ever been in a car wreck?
no

13. Do you have an accent?
yes, oghang perak, loghat perak la

14. What is the last song which made you cry?
what eh? can't remember

15. What are your plans for tonight?
photoshop-ing , updating stuffs and sleep

16. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
yes

17. Name 3 things you bought yesterday:
things girl selalu beli

18. Have you ever been given roses?
yes

19. Current worry?
did i hurt them?

20. Current hate right now
this ****ing feeling

21. Met someone who changed your life?
yes

22. How will you bring in the New Year?
like nothing happens

23. What song represents you?
Errr..dunno? Maybe 2PM - Tired of Waiting ?

24. Name three people who might complete this?
Shiema, Eimie (can ar? XD) Hanna

25. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Yup, I would

26. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
my parents?

27. Do you have any tattoos/piercings?
ear piercings, yes. tattoos, no

28. Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
dunno

29. Does anyone love you?
my parents

30. Ever had someone sing to you?
yes

31. When did you last cry?
entah!

32. Do you like to cuddle?
depend

33. Have you held hands with anyone today?
salam mak abah sblm keluar tadi

34. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
westlife, blue, bsb, linkin park

35. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
half half

36. Do you like pulpy orange juice?
yes

p/s: Shiema, Eimie and Hanna~ buat la ye? Hahaha!! XD

A random update

2010-06-23T12:07:00.000+08:00

Your rainbow is strongly shaded red and green.

What is says about you: You are an intelligent person. You appreciate energetic people. Those around you admire your fresh outlook and vitality. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Save them

2010-06-01T04:06:00.005+08:00

1. What were we doing while our brothers and sisters were being attacked? You know yourselves better..

2. The Israeli said they were defending themselves? Oh, come on!! That's a lie!! Those people won't give any harm, with kids and old people on board!

3. I'm scared and I'm mad! Seriously, they're totally heartless!

4. May Allah save the activists.

p/s: Allah Maha Adil.. Dia akan balas balik atas setiap perbuatan Israel laknatullah tu, samada di dunia atau di akhirat..

Belated...

2010-05-19T01:12:00.002+08:00

Sebenarnya dh pikir nak post entry ni tapi x ter'type'.. :P
Saje nak wish:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, DEAR YB! ^^;;

P/S: Agak2 dia bace x entry ni? Haha.

P/SS: Ntah2 nnti die reply: "Thank you and love you!" *okay, sengal~ :P*

ratu 'muslimah'...?

2010-05-18T23:01:00.002+08:00

Thanks to my dear friend, Fareha Azhar. Ni pun amik kat blog dia. Nah, baca sendiri. Eh, jap! Yg laki tu, x payah la klik kat 'sumber'. Baca kat blog sudeyh~ Klu x, buat dosa pulak sbb ada gambar.

http://farehaazhar.blogspot.com/

Terkezut dgn berita ni. Islamkah?
Bukan nak kata Kino ni baik sgt, tapi Kino masih tau batas2 aurat, yang mana dosa pahala. >.>
Dugaan duduk di negara asing, macam tu la agaknya. Tapi kalau difikirkan balik, kat Malaysia pun apa kurangnya. Tu ke yang dimaksudkan "Islam liberal"..? Hak kebebasan wanita?

P/S: Teringat lagi dulu; Ustazah Huda pernah cakap, perempuan2 Lebanon memang cantik2. Lelaki yang pergi vacation sana mesti bawak balik bakal bini. =.="

Quitting facebook..?

2010-05-15T11:16:00.016+08:00

Here is, what some people want to do: QUIT FACEBOOK-ING.

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1h4iGm/newsfeed.time.com/2010/05/17/want-to-quit-facebook-join-the-crowd-leaving-on-may-31//r:t

Honestly, I was thought of leaving facebook. But, you know, like what a group of people said:
"quitting Facebook is like quitting smoking." it is..quite hard. *lagi2 org mcm Kino yg dah melekat dgn segala games yg ada kat FB tu..XDD*

I agree with those 29% of college students said, 'they felt addicted to their media devices when asked to go without them for 24 hours.'
I don't really mind, if there is no television in the house, or no Internet connection, but..living without my laptop is like an alcoholic who doesn't drink for a day..or, simply say: I'm addicted to my laptop. :P
Like some of you, believe me..everyone cannot live without their handphone. Ask yourself, can you live without your phone? No? Well, that it is! You're addicted to your phone. XD

I can't imagine what will I do if my laptop crash...?!! Can't imagine..!! Oh, please don't!! O.o

Okay, back to the topic. :P
Can you leave facebook? Can you?
Well, like quitting smoking, you need to quit it by steps..
First, don't go facebook-ing for a day. Then continue for a week, a month and so on..
And then, yayyy! You have succeeded quitting facebook!! *pops confetti* ^^;;

P/S: Facebook semacam dah bosan skrg. Kan? XDD

P/SS: Quite a few friends asked who was the guy in my dream *refer to my previous entry*.See here http://onyxmyc1510.blogspot.com/ He's one of those guys on the right bar. 8DD *Promote blog Mrs.Onyx Hehe!*

It was only a dream.. ^^

2010-05-14T10:44:00.004+08:00

It happened last night. I never thought of him coming into my dream. Well, it's pretty much because I talked about him to my sister before I went to sleep.

It's like a drama. I went out with him and my sister (see..? this is all because of the talk) to a restaurant for a dinner. Nothing special happened there, all was chit-chatting and enjoying the food. Korean food. Okay, honestly, I was craving for Soon Du Bu. :P I once tasted it, and it was good. I like it, much more than Bibimbap. Hehe. But, of course, sushi is the best. :D

Continue with the story: my sister went back home early because she got some issues in her office. Funny is, she is now..I mean, in real, she is doing her practical in her major, accounting. Not even working for real..but in that dream, she already has a huge, nice and well developed office. Haha.^^

So, I was left with him, and everything turned to be a little bit awkward. We didn't talked too much, as I remember.. To make it short, he walked me home (okay, why not by a car..?) and I noticed how tall he was. My head only reached his chest. Am I too tiny? XD

We talked as we walked. I asked him how's his life? Too hectic? Too much work to do? Pack schedule? He said something like, Yes, I am sort of tied to my work but I still have time for you. I was so speechless and couldn't walk properly. (As I remember)(I wish it is not a dream.. :P) When we reached my house, he wished me a good night and so did I. And and..he hugged me. D: I should be happy, should I? He is not someone that I like nor I hate, in reality. I like someone else, honestly. :P

The next day as I remember, I went to school (I was still a school kiddo..Haha!) and I met him in class. We learned and I had my break time with him, sharing our food. Suddenly... my mom woke me up. =.="

I wish the dream went much longer. I want to know what'd happen next. He walks me home? Someone bullies me and he gets into a fight with that guy? A girl tells me to not be so closed with him and started to pull my hair? Haha!

Honestly, it's really really rare for me to have a dream. My dreams always unexpected and contradicted to the reality. :D

Anyway, guess who was that guy in my dream? You know him for sure! XD

P/S: Mimpi tu kan mainan syaitan..Jangan la percaya sgt karut sungguh entry ni. :P

Satu hari di tengah hari...

2010-05-11T22:17:00.008+08:00

Warning: Ceritanya panjang..(takde la panjang mane pun) Kalo malas nak bace sila la undur diri..Kino x kesah.. XD

Matahari terik kat atas kepale..
"Thank you, uncle" smbil mencampak keluar beg2 yg berisikan batu dari dlm teksi..
"Sama-sama.." Haha! Comey la uncle, peringatan: laen kali ucap trime kasih dlm bm ye..

Kes 1

Sambil2 tunggu bas pukul 3ptg, padahal baru 1.40. lambat lagi neyh~
smbil urut2 kaki yg dah saket, toleh kanan, toleh kiri..seorang gadis ayu sedang menunggu bas..foreigner wey! (Kino bukan les..)
tiba2 die senyum kat Kino..aiseyh~ senyum la balek kan, senyum tu kan sedekah..

"Excuse me, are you going to Penang?" owh..ni mesti nak gi Penang ni..
"No, I'm going to Ipoh, Perak."
"You are going to Penang?" Soalan yg same diulang lagi..
"I'm going to USM, Penang. Are you going to the same place?"
"Sorry, but I'm not. I'm going to Perak." Sambil menghulurkan senyuman manis..ececeh! :P
"Oh, okay. By the way, what time is it now?"
"1.53"
"Can you please set the time for me?" Sambil bagi jam die. Bukan jam bese2.Jam antik yg mcm loket tu.Berkilat2 lagi. Okay, materialistik giler bunyik kat sini.. So, Kino pun set time tuk minah tu.
"Thank you"
" :) "
"I'm from Iran. I just arrived here yesterday." Peramah la awek ni..
"Owh!" Sengal x..?Tu je la yg Kino mampu jwb dlm keadaan penat nak mati..

Tak lama pastu

"What did she say?" Tanye awek Iran tu kat Kino..Kino yg x tau ujung pangkalnye terpinga2..
"I asked her how old is she, but I don't understand what did she say." Smbil pandang kat awek blkg seat Kino..
"Akak ni tanya, brape umur adik?" Kino pun men'translate' kat adik tu.
"Lapan belas"
"Eighteen. She is 18 year old."
"Eighteen? Is that her son?"
"Ni adik?" Smbil pointing kat baby atas lap adik pompuan tu.
"Ya, ya. Adik saya"
"That is her brother. Not her son." Membetulkan salah faham..
"Owh. I asked her is that boy her son and she said yes!"
"Haha. Maybe she didn't understand you." Suke ati je Kino buat konklusi kan? :P

Kes 2

"Did they say Penang?"
"Yes, but I'm not sure if that is your bus. You better check at the counter where you buy your ticket."
"Okay." Awek ni pun gi la kat kaunter tiket tu..

Tibe2...

"Miss, want to go to Penang, right?" Tanye bro yg jage kat kaunter tadi.. Yg x tahannye, pehal die rapat2 dgn awek tu..? ish!
Awek Iran ni pun aguk2 je kepale..
"Bus is over there." Smbil tunjuk kat bas nun di hujung jln.
"The bus won't coming here?"
"The bus wait there. You go there."
"But how am I going to load up my luggage?"
Ternganga bro tu..Ade 4 bijik luggage besar2 seyh~!! :D
"Masalah wey! Masalah! Mai sini wey ni haa ade luggage besaq2!" Bro tu pun 'borak' melalui walkie-talkie..
"What was he saying?" Tanye awek Iran tu kat Kino.
"He's saying that..the bus will be waiting there. It won't coming, so you have to get there by yourself."
"Owh!"
"And he talked to someone maybe the driver of your bus to come here because your luggage are big. Maybe..I'm not sure."
"Okay."

"Should I wait?"
"Yes, just wait here." Suke ati je Kino memberi arahan..Haha! :P
"Anyway, I'm going to USM for three years."
"For studying?"
"Yes. Is USM a good university?"
"Yes, it is. It is a good local university."
"What course are you taking?"
"English literature."
"Owh!"

"PENANG!PENANG!PENANG!"

"This is your bag?" Tanye sorang bro yg laen kat awek tadi.
"Yes2, these all four are mine."

Tanpa byk arahan, bro yg baek hati ni pun angkat la satu luggage yg besar gedabak gi kat bas..
Awek Iran ni pun tarik la satu dari 4 tadi..
Kino kesian tgok awek tu, macam nak tolong tapi x tolong pun..badan dan kaki dah penat, x mampu nak menolong..maaf la ye miss Iran!

"Woi woi! Hebat giler wey ang angkat!" Jerit sorang bro kat kaunter ditujukan kat bro yg tolong angkat beg awek tu.
"Woi pegi la tolong angkat wey!"
"Pehal minah ni byk sgt barang? Lari rumah ke?!"
"Menyusahkan la wey! Ko pegi ar angkat!"
"Eiii~! Pehal ntah beg besar2!"

Umpatan dan cacian ditruskan..Kino hanye mampu menggeleng kepale..Kesian awek Iran tu, x paham bm..
Akhirnye berjaya jugak awek tu naek bas die. Kino pun melambai2 tgn tande bye2.
Baru pukul 2.30ptg. Penantian diteruskan..

Kes 3

Pukul 3.10. Kino pun berjaye naek bas yg hanye suku je penumpangnye..
Tanpe disedari, terlelap la Kino...dan tibe2..

"TIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!"

Tersentak Kino dari lena dek alarm yg ntah dari mane berbunyi..
Bas tibe2 berenti tepi jalan..'Eh ni kat mane? Baru pukul 3.45ptg..Rosak ke?'
Hujan lebat, kilat sabung menyabung kat luar..
Bro driver pun turun dari bas tnpa mengendahkan bahaya nak gi check enjin kot..
Tak lama pastuh..

"Enjin rosak..enjin rosak."

Aiseyh~ rosak la pulak.. Takpe la, tunggu je. Sementara tu bleh ar smbung tido. Sejuk2 ni sedap tido. Ngehehe! :P Tapi x tido pun.. tourists dari India kat blkg borak bukan main kencang.

"How long we have to wait?" Tanye sorang penumpang.
"Half an hour, another bus will come." Jwb bro drebar.

Pendek kan citer, sejam la kitorg tunggu.
Dan yg dtg bukanlah bas dari company bas yg same dgn bas yg kitorg naek.
Tahan je bas yg lalu kat situ, kalo same direction, tumpang la.
Alhamdulillah, pakcik Plusliner membenarkan Kino dan lain2 tumpang bas die...
..dan berjaye juge Kino smpai rumah dlm pukul 7mlm.

Sekian, trima kaseh kerane membaca. Moral values? Lu pikir la sendiri !!

I've been tagged by Eimie aka my cutie sweetie ^^;;

2010-03-29T00:33:00.005+08:00

Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. I know I have an early class tomorrow morning but yet not sleeping. =P
2. I need to drink at least a cup of coffee or tea per day.
3. I think I have a short term memory lost (STML)
4. I'm not the oldest in my family but I always help my siblings when it comes to lending money. ^^''
5. Addicted to games. I want PSP!!! =)
6. Lot of times, my friends said I look cool, but actually my brain is a total mess and think too much.
7. Can't make decision when it's for myself.
8. Know Jpop before Kpop.
9. Stubborn.
10. Love to do things by myself, and like to be alone sometimes. =)
11. A dentist in future, to be specific, a dental surgeon. ^^;;
12. Admire my dentist, 'cause he's nice and kind. No no, he's not the reason I'm going to be a dentist.
13. Was afraid of needles.. Haha!
14. I have chubby cheeks, even if I'm a skeleton. =P
15. Want to be slimmer. XD
16. Love fish more than chicken, I think. Hehe

Persons been tagged :- Momo unnie, Shiema, Syu neechan, Chii-chan, Sarah Syahirah and Jooleeyah.

Why I tagged them :-
Because they're my friends. ^^;;

Just a liitle update

2010-03-14T16:05:00.002+08:00

Took from my lovely sister, Nur Amirah Mohd. Rizal Yong. =)
( I miss you babe >_>)

ALLAH'S PLANS

Some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn't always turn out as planned.
You don't plan for a broken heart.
You don't plan for an autistic child.
You don't plan for spinsterhood.
You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad.
You don't plan to be hurt.
You don't plan to be broke.
You don't plan to be betrayed.
You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You plan to be happy.
You don't plan to be shattered .

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But MOST
times, what you want and what you get are two different things.

We, mortals, plan. But so does Allah (SWT) in the heavens. Sometimes, it
is difficult to understand Allah's plans especially when His plans are
not in consonance with ours .

Often, when He sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot
choose what Allah wishes us to carry, but we can carry it with courage
knowing that He will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope
with .

Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the
value of everything He gave us

Make plans, but understand that we live by Allah's grace.

Although they plan, Allah also plans. And Allah is the Best of Planners.
[Holy Qur'an 8:30]

=)

This week is..

2010-03-09T02:34:00.002+08:00

the most miserable week I have ever had.

I've been tagged by Chii-chan

2010-03-01T11:11:00.008+08:00

Okay. It's like she's tagged me almost a month ago. It's not that I'm not aware of the tag. I saw her post saying that she tagged me a week after she posted it but it took me 3-4 weeks to complete the task. With the packed schedule (not that packed actually), the quizzes, tutorials, examinations and most critical barrier : the laziness. Okay, whatever. So here the completed task or tag that I've done:

The 25-not-so secrets of mine.
(Since I'm almost graduated from the foundation studies, so I think it's fine if I tell some secrets about me? LOL)

Oh wait, the rules are:

1. Write down 25 things about you that you don't think most of your flist knows.
2.Even if they are weird, post them.
3.Tag 3 people to do the same

So here they go:

1. I can sleep anywhere easily if I want to sleep. LOL. Always, I went to my friend's room, sometimes I slept on her bed and puffff~ in a few seconds or minutes, I've gone to the dreamland. :P Well, not everyone can sleep soundly easily, especially we, the students who have to think lots of things and our brains work almost the times. To have a good sleep, empty your mine and forgive everyone before you go to sleep, you'll get a fine sleep, insyaAllah. ^^;;

2. I was once a weight-conscious freak. I was too afraid with gaining weight but not weight loss. I did reached 40kg with the height of 160cm. That sounds creepy, right? You'd feel like touching a real human skeleton without flesh and I still remember whenever I sit, I can feel the pelvic bones really touched the place where I sit. There are few sensitive reasons that caused me to become such a freak person, can't really share them here. But today, I'm a healthy will-be 20-year-old girl and I'm happy with what I've right now. Haha. I know you won't believe this story. It's up to you to believe it or not. >.>

3. I was pretty sick during my high school. I got really really bad migraine (that can cause you to collapse), and was having a low blood pressure. Those I think because of the 'anorexic' thingy 'cause they started to happen after I started with the 'killer' diet.

4. Nowadays are the opposite situations. I able to eat almost all 'halal' food till the last bite even though they're not yummy, and without overly conscious about gaining weight. I loveeee food. How can I suddenly change? I don't want to be sick anymore and so I should have balance meals. Plus, my dad kept worrying about my health, so it's better to stop such habit.

5. Almost everyone said I look 'garang' or fierce or quiet or whatever-that-is-not-a-good-impression when the first time they met me. They'll feel scared to talk to me, think that I'm unapproachable and bla bla bla. I used to it. I've listened to the impressions again and again since I was young. LOL. Like SHINee's Key said that no one ever said he looks kind. Is type B's are like this? We got the 'stay away from me' aura? I think so. :P But once you know me, you'll know me. Got what I mean? Haha. Don't judge the book by it's cover.

6. I'm a computer game freak. Just give me any games, I'll play any of it 24hours (sleepless) until I finish the mission. So, please please don't introduce to me any good games or I'll be a zombie one day. :P Currently..absorbed by the PSP's games. Final Fantasy! ♥

7. Hate to wake up late in the morning and dislike to sleep early at night. But it's always : sleep-late-wakeup-late or sleep-early-wakeup-early. I'm a normal human being too. I need to have at least 5hours of sleep but tend to be less during examination weeks.

8. I'm suck at languages. English? Malay? Japanese? Korean? Those are not my forte.

9. Hate is a strong word, right? I dislike pink. Haha. I know it's our Prophet's (PBUH) favourite colour but I just can't imagine myself with that soft colour. Who knows one day I'll love the colour to no end? Or pink will be my wedding theme colour? Oh no!!

10. I was once thought to be a manga-nist or an artist. Open an art gallery one day and live life together with my arts. Haha. Sounds like a fairytale story. That won't happen, I can't live only by being a manga-nist. So I thought to be an engineer and later open the gallery. That won't happen too since my dad objects my idea. He just don't want another daughter of his to be an engineer. So now? Fine fine. Enough here.

11. My tongue is short. That's why I always mispronounced words whether they are in English or Malay. Higher chances for it to happen when I'm too excited over things and want to speak about it. Please please don't laugh when it happened 'cause I already embarrassed even before you laughed.

12. My fingers are not straight. They are curvy. Yea, so?

13. Love God, Prophet (PBUH), family, friends and cats more than myself. ^^;;

14. Get bored easily over lots of things, especially guys. Haha! LOL. That's why I keep changing my fandoms. >.<

15. Ideal type guys? Personalities come before looks. Prefer someone who is reliable, having a soft-side, understanding and independent more than a handsome, having a strong personality and cool guy. Unfortunately, my favourites in fandoms always ones opposite with my ideal guys. :P

16. Love cooking. Hate sewing. >.< Have done lots of experiments on foods. Maybe I can be a cook. Muahaha!

17. I have lots of diaries and they are everywhere. LOL. I myself can't really locate where they are. ^^ Don't search for them! LMAO.

18. Love coffee and tea! XD Any coffee-based and tea-based drinks. I can drink 4 cups of nescafe per day. The less sweet the drinks, the better, like a pure green tea with no sugar. ^^;; And and dark chocolate! Can someone gives me lots of dark chocolates for my coming birthday? >.<

19. Love potatoes in any form. ^^

20. Inherit my Dad's habit: store everything I have even though I know the things have no use for me. Have the thought, 'maybe I can use later' or 'maybe I have to use them in future' and so, I got lots of things. Haha. I really love my stuffs, especially if I got them as presents.

21. I have a big bone structure, almost like guys? XD Even the most slender I can be, I still can't wear S size shirts, I mean, girl size. >.< And a bit slouch? Yea, I have a bad body structure, and really hope I can fix it.

22. Love technology! Hi tech gadgets! But I do not own a lot of money. So to own many of them only left as dreams. >.<

23. They said type B's like to spend money on unnecessary things. I think I am. Hahaha! Wonder if I can stop that habit, or I'll totally broke.

24. I'm wearing braces. LOL. Random, 'cause I can't think any other things to reveal. Haha!

25. I think I can't really share my ichibans with my friends especially; Sho Sakurai, Park Yoochun and Dong Yongbae. Or I'll get pretty jealous. Jealous over what? I don't know. Haha!

This is freaking tough! It took me 3 days to complete it, 'cause I think there's not much things to tell? >.< I'm a pretty honest girl. Kekeke!

Okay, the 3 persons shall be :

- Bella, yea you, Nabilah! XD
- Su'aidah
- Ummu *will she do this? :P *
- Sarah

Oh, there are 4. Like I care. Haha!
Do it girls. ^^;; Anyways, thanks for spending your time reading all those secrets. >.<
Taa~ XD

What's your blood type?

2010-02-03T10:48:00.015+08:00

What's your blood type?
A, B, AB or O?
Often in Japan and Korea, one's personality is associated with the blood type.
Even in an interview for a job in both countries, the question: "What's your blood type?" is possible to be asked. Plus, they do separate workers according to the blood type in the work place.
You will see that Japanese and Korean idols always include blood type in their profile.
Even though there's no current prove showing that the idea is right, still, they believe blood type greatly influenced one's personality. What's more, the topic is popular in women magazines in Japan where they discuss about the relationship compatibility based on the couples' blood types.

Personally, I don't understand how they relate a person's personality with his or her blood type.
That's why I did a little research about it.
Okay, let's see check out everyone's personality.^^

Blood type A

People with blood type A have a deep-rooted strength that helps them stay calm in a crisis when everyone else is panicking.
While outwardly calm, they have such high standards (perfectionists) that they tend to be balls of nerves on the inside.
Type A's are the most artistic of the blood groups.
They can be shy, are conscientious and sensitive.
They are considerate to others and cannot tell a lie easily.
They are loyal to friends and co-workers.
They can be secretive, though, and don't often share their feelings (trustworthy).
They are also a planner. They like to make plan in details, but they sometimes can be too serious and hard to hang out with in a while.
Love peacefulness and harmony, love to work in a group and always involve themselves with activities.
They are ambitious and competitive, unfortunately, type A's always work too hard and so, forget their own health.

Blood type B

Goal oriented and strong minded, type B's will start a task and continue it until completed, and completed well.
When they are doing something, all of their attention is focused on it.
They tend to be less than cooperative, as they like to follow their own rules and their own ideas (individualists).
Type B's always pay attention to their thoughts a little more than their feelings, and therefore can sometimes seem cold and serious.
They have independent spirits with strong personalities. While they don't care what others think of them, they are extremely passionate about the things they hold dear.
They can be shallow, lazy, sensitive and quite impatient.
They are honest and sometimes so meant for their opinions, especially in a relationship.
An outgoing and a cheerful person.
They really care about moderation.
Type B's are creative and flexible, where they can easily cooperate with the new environment.
Unfortunately, type B's "like to do everything alone" or don't like to ask for help always put them in trouble and so, exposing their weaknesses.

Blood type AB

Type AB's are the split personalities of the blood groups.
They are an unpredictable, distant lot, but tend to use their heads over their hearts.
They can be both outgoing and shy, confident and timid.
While responsible, too much responsibility will cause a problem.
They are trustworthy and like to help others, but can't handle it when there's too much asked from them.
Type AB's are good with money.
They are calm, rational and can control their emotions very well.
They can be an entertainer. People around them will never get bored to stay in touch with them because they are cool entertainers with a bunch of funny stories or acts.
Bad thing is, they couldn't easily makes decisions and tend to let others decide for them.

Blood type O

Type O's are outgoing, expressive, passionate and very social.
They are highly motivated and natural leaders.
Blessed with a strong physical presence, they aren't afraid to gamble because they are so convinced they will win. They are natural athletes.
They tend to be obsessive in their quest for success, and this can make them boring to others.
They are born faithful, especially in relationship.
They are initiators, although they don't always finish what they start because always have trouble of following through since they give up easily.
They are flighty and not too dependable. O types always say what's on their mind.
They are creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention and appear extremely self-confident.
Sometimes type O's are said to have a strong jealousy.
Bad thing, the strong desire and really serious in competition always put type O's in stress, and so easily loss control of their emotions.

Enough?
You can google more about your blood type easily because there's thousand stories about relationship between blood type and a person's characteristics.
We can also know we are susceptible to what kind of diseases through our blood type too because each blood type carries different genes, and thus, has different genes' characteristics and structures in which expose them to different kind of disease.

Still, we can't believe the idea of blood type greatly influenced one's personality 100% because it's only been proven through history.
Environment and hormones can also influence one's behavior. Other than that, one's spiritual level can express his or her behavior.
Reciting al-Qur'an and always pray to Him, insyaAllah will make us a better person, regardless of what blood type we have.

(^_^)

sources:
http://www.bellaonline.com/articles/art22988.asp
http://www.unsolvedmysteries.com/usm422758.html
http://www.healthkicker.com/707972949/blood-type-and-personality/
http://khaleeftunggal.blogspot.com/2009/05/i-got-this-facts-from-web-in-internetof.html

One word

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ITAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am I?

2010-01-29T23:03:00.005+08:00

"Friends Forever"

I wonder
Am I a really good friend of yours?
Have I ever done something good for you?
Have I ever made you happy?
Have I ever made you laugh?
Have I ever hurt you?
Always
I know
I bring no good to you
I'm so nothing to you
But
I always love you
You are my very precious friend
Even though you don't feel the same way
I don't care
What I care is you
No matter what happen
Friends are always friends

"We only know how to appreciate something when we lost it"

Lain macam?

2010-01-29T01:54:00.006+08:00

"Pick-a-boo?"

Tak pernah rasa ape yang aku rasa tadi
Bahaya betul la
Rasa lain macam yang tak pernah aku rasa
Terkejut pun ada
Falling in love?
Tak kot
Tapi aku tak pernah rasa terlalu dekat macam tu
Boleh tak lain kali jangan muncul tiba2?
Boleh kena heart attack ni
Kalau sape2 yang faham tu senyap jangan bising
Haha!

Esok quiz Chem
Tapi sekarang baru baca 50% kot
Haishh~

Feeling

2010-01-21T18:06:00.004+08:00

"Do you know him? No?"

There's tonnes of work to be done.
Yet I'm here blogging. Haha.
Just want to release some stress okay?

I wish I'm at home right now.
I miss my family so much, especially my Dad.
His birthday is coming.
But I can't go back on the exact date.
Lots of work and quizzes need my touch.
I hope he's well, he's always sick.
(bapak borek anak rintik)
I feel a bit disappointed with myself.
Okay not a bit, LOTS!
This is the first time I've ignored his wish.
His BIGGEST wish.
I just can't be a doctor.
I know I can't, there's no other reason.
Oh and plus, I don't like (hate is too much) Biology, since high school.
Enough with complaining.
I can't turn back.
But still, am I anak derhaka?

What I want right now is only a hug from him.

"When someone you loved betrays you, don't worry, Allah is there for you and He will never betray you"

Today

2010-01-20T00:06:00.003+08:00

"FT Island Choi Min Hwan"
"New heartthrob"
"I'm not loyal? So what?"

Yes, everything happens for a reason or a few reasons.
Just bare it and be strong whenever we have to face those difficulties and hard times.
He knows the best for us.
Like, if you failed to do something, there must be a reason for it.
Example? You might turn swank (berlagak, kan?)
So, let face them and pray that everything runs out smoothly.

" What's happened today will contribute to what will happen in our future"

Bangun pagi...

2010-01-17T07:48:00.004+08:00

Siapa yang suke bangun awal pagi?

Eh..gambar tu bukan tangkap pagi2 tau..tu masa senja..hari tu kata ade gerhana matahari..semangat je tunggu kat tingkap tengok2 matahri tapi nape macam takde je?

Pelik ke bangun awal? Tak kan... One of my friends bebel pasal bangun pagi. Nape saya suke bangun awal pagi? Berkat wey.. Lagipun udara pagi fresh, oleh sebab hidung ni sangat la sensitif, bolehlah teka compositions of molecules dalam udara tu. Ngehehe!

Bangun awal pagi ni bajet nak gi exercise pagi2. Tapi niat terbantut memikirkan kawan saya sorang yang enak diulit mimpi dan memang x gemar bangun pagi. Haha. Jangan marah ek? :P
Satu lagi bangun awal sebab tibe2 rasa sakit tekak yang teramat la pedih. Haaaa.. sakit lagi. Memang saya makin tua la. Asyik sakit je. Mak dah pesan amik spirulina tiap2 hari untuk elak sakit2 ni tapi botol supplement tu pun dah berhabuk tak terusik. Isk! Pengajaran untuk hari ni: dengar la cakap mak ye?

Homework berlambak tak siap lagi ni.
Dah la Kina, pergi buat kerja.

Selamat pagi semua! ^^;

And so..

2010-01-16T20:04:00.005+08:00

'FT Island Lee Hong Ki'

"Officially re-open my blog"

"Congratulations for the 100th post!"
Throw confetti for me!

Please ignore my retarded side. -____-"

I went to MidValley today with my evil-triangle buddies.
I was craving for McDonald and I've never had the prosperity burger.
So, I ate it and it tastes good!
I like it and maybe I'll get it again for the next time, if it's still available.^^;

I saw many people today, like always there are lots of people there on weekend.
But, actually, there are also some people those look alike Korean artists.
Oh, before that, Ummu and I talked about one of our campus boys that looks like Super Junior Yesung and someone that I saw just now (our campus boy too I think) from far away, looks like 2PM Taecyeon.
At Mid, there is someone having a figure like FT Island Jaejin. (We're having the same thought la Ummu.Haha!)
And someone's having V6 Miyake Ken's look from one side! o.O
Last week or a fortnight ago, there's a guy looks like 2PM Nickhun.
Our citizens got those handsome Korean/Japanese-look guys too.
We don't have to go to Korea or Japanese, we just need to find them in our own country. Haha!

Bought again the croquette, this time I bought two, and now they're save in my stomach.
I just love potato, in any forms. ^^;

"Anyone looks like FT Island Min Hwan?"

Ngehehehe! :P

Senang sakit?

2010-01-15T18:43:00.003+08:00

One: One of my body part feels so damn hurt, like someone had stepped on it with all her energy. Wherever and whenever I walk, it's double hurt. I should have done the x-ray test immediately after the accident. Now my ten years old has flew away.

Two: My left kneecap is hurt also. I'm slowly getting like an old lady. It's not what I asked for. It was an accident. It happened a week or two ago, I thought it's already fine but few hours ago, when I was washing the clothes, I feel it again because I was standing too long (I'm like an old lady), and it can be felt until now. It's not hurt that much but really, makes me uncomfortable whenever I walk around.

Three: My stomach hurts so much, cause I didn't had my breakfast and lunch, and suddenly a heavy dinner. Gastric? No, I ate too much. ^^;

What's wrong?

2010-01-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

"I didn't say that I have never done something like that or I will never do anything like that. You got it wrong and so, stop making that face like I'm the guilty one."

I pass. That's it, no good at all because I only pass it. One two steps I might fail. I believed my parents will definitely disappointed, simply because I myself, am not satisfied. I'm a normal human being, that's our nature to have dissatisfaction over most things, if not, we won't get or make something perfect. Back to the case, how should I tell my parents? Directly face to face? Or talk about it over the phone? Which one is better? Either way, they need to know it. *sigh*

Already have been decided. It's my future. I'll have to endure that world for my entire life. Frankly, I wasn't think deeply over that thing. Yes, I'm such an idiot who can't decide my own life. Almost all times will be persuaded or pushed by my Dad. But from now on, please let me decide myself which path should I choose. I'm afraid that I can't be independent. Clinging too much on him, I can't well developed. I'm sorry..for him..

There's like thousand clouds trying to fill in my life and everyday it keeps be added. It's like I don't have anymore tears. Am I already reach the heartless state? Although it's hurting, I can't cry even for a drop of tear. Even though it will hurt the people around me, I still will do it, because I'm heartless? Or is it because I'm such an idiot? Please, lend me you tears or trigger me to cry! My heart already exploded, silently and it was hurt so much, and still can be felt until now.

"Even when the clouds are above you, be strong!"

Everyone can change to be a better person

2009-12-12T19:21:00.002+08:00

It's the freedom of choice. You choose whether you want to change or not. If you feel that you're already great, go on don't make any change upon yourself. But remember humans are imperfect. Our faith on Him day by day will fade if you don't keep upgrading it. Everyday we make mistakes without even we realized it. Even sometimes we saw men and women those don't cover their aurah properly in television, and we watch the scenes. That's a small sin and we don't realized about it. Now, do you still you are perfect? I am not. I am a normal human being who always forget about good and bad things, always doing sins and sometimes forgot to repent as I didn't realized what I've done were wrongs. As my friend said about gratefulness about things that He has gave to us. Am I grateful over all things that I have? Pathetically, I am not and I should be grateful. Let see the example. I got the chance to be a medical student, where many others want to be, but I refuse to take the offer. Later on I try my best to change my course to medical course simply because of my dad's hope. I wasn't grateful, was I? I keep blaming my dad for the complications of my studies, but should I really have to do that? There are lots of others who don't have fathers to guide them on their future life. I am not grateful, right?

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim,
Please always guides me to the real path,
Please reminds me to be grateful,
Please helps me to be a good daughter,
Please forgive all my sins, my parents and other Muslims' sins that we've done,
Helps me make my family happy,
Please be besides me.
Amin amin ya rabbalalamin.

A few updates..

2009-12-05T03:44:00.002+08:00

I've been so lazy lately..to update this blog..No, I've got no time. really! :P

Tommy is at my sister house. How is he? He's sad, I knew it! My sister told me that he doesn't eat as much as her other 2 cats. He's getting slander and slander and slander... D:

Lots of work to be done..so ganbarimasu!

Dad invited me...No, pushed me to follow him to Klang during my only 1week mid-sem break. No! I don't want to go Dad! Please understand me!

Will be on hiatus..Till....I don't know..1 year?

Have a nice day peeps! :)

Bebelan.. :D

2009-11-27T22:17:00.003+08:00

Well, lets see what happened recently.

- My Chunnie got viruses from nowhere and I need to restart it few times to clean them. I hate viruses! I've to delay my downloading work.
- I missed my step on the stairs last day and my TSC CD case cracked because of that. I'm sad! :(
- Watched New Moon with my sisters and wasn't concentrating with the movie because of few factors. Need to rewatch, YES, HAVE TO watch it again since I'm not satisfied.
- Had my first jog after months of laziness, although my leg hurts. Nearly chased by a stupid dog and luckily I've my sister who safe me. I hate dogs. I'm not meant for Taeyang I guess.
- Craving for rendang since it's Raya but unfortunately no ingredients for it, need to buy but Mom's not going to help if I cook it. Yes, I need her help to cook rendang since I'm not that professional. If not, that rendang will turn out to be NOT a rendang. xD
- Watched the preview of IRIS 14th ep. Hehe. TOP's kissing scene...how should I explained? ^^;

Nothing much happened..
Have a nice day everyone. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha. :)

Should I be sad?

2009-11-20T20:17:00.005+08:00

Today is mom's birthday. Otanjoubi omedetou okasan! I love you so much! Hopefully this year will be another splendid year for you and have a blast! Wish you all the best at work and thank you so much for taking a very good care of eight of us..and Dad too. Even though I didn't give any present, *she don't want anything from me*..I hope my came back is accepted as a present too. Maybe I'll give her something next weekend, cause rumors saying that allowance for the JPA students already in today..hopefully..

Plus, today is chii's and lya's birthday too. Wonderful coincidences. ^^

I should be happy for my mom's birthday. Unfortunately, there's something that makes me feel uneasy and unhappy. Mom and Dad are going to send my cat to my sister in Sg. Buloh. The reasons are, no one wants to look after him at home and no one wants to discard his poos *he does his 'project' on the provided sand*..He is a homey type of cat. He dislikes to go out cause he is afraid of cars', lorries' etc. sounds. So, my mom said it's troublesome for her to discard that poos and she needs to do it herself, everyday and of course the smell of it is...euww.. I understand that and I can't say anything..it's her who needs to do all those stuffs. But it's quite pretty sad. After this, no one would wait for me at the door whenever I come back home. No one would play with me and leave so much scratches on my hands *though I hate him the moment he did it*.

Bye bye Tommy. Will visit you when I have time and money to go to Sg. Buloh. *sigh*

Going back to campus tomorrow. Thinking of not yet doing assignment and the drawing is still unfinished...do I really need to go back early tomorrow? D:

What's the matter with me? xD

2009-11-10T19:25:00.004+08:00

Okay fine. Please ignore the previous post.I was in the bad mood during writing it.

I forgot on how to draw the eyes! I mean..the manga character's eyes. The males' eyes! They seem like having those girls' eyes : big and round and thick eyelashes. This is a major problem! OMG! Help me please. I need back all my comics and mangas to refer to, those all the drawings. Can someone lend me a comic or manga please? I want to complete my task as soon as possible. Seems like I need to go out this weekend to find some references.-__-" How the hell can I forgot? My right hand can't draw it properly. It seems too wrong. I'm disappointed with myself. It's only been for 3years since the last time I draw somethings. But but..I don't know why I'm having this emotional kind of feeling. It's like I lost my passion over drawings..and I hate it!

I think I'm just too lazy to write more. Actually, there are lots of things I want to share here but work is preventing me from keep going on with writing. Maybe I'll update later with long long post. :D

Well..

2009-11-09T03:35:00.003+08:00

I'm too lazy to update this blog..like I've got nothing to say or to share. Plus, even if I posted something on this blog, people don't care about it. Okay, let the time decides everything.

Chelsea 1, Man U 0..Going to celebrate tomorrow. Good night people.

New semester...

2009-10-29T18:05:00.002+08:00

For me, it's weird. It does feel really really weird, pelik when I'm now having some free times, my new semester is not that hectic like the previous semesters, hontouni! If you don't believe me, ask my roommate, about my previous timetables. There was no time for me to go online here, well, I was sometimes online though the homework haven't finished, to relax a bit, okay? xD I'm really really glad and praise to Him for giving me this moment, this very precious semester for me to spend wisely, to improve my result, perform better for this time. I hope I'll always, zutto, appreciate and remember that every second is so precious! For now, there's nothing much to do other than revise what I've learnt in classes and do the homework given.

Yosh! Let's strive to the excellence, okay? Ganbatte ne, minna! Ganbarimasu! :)

I'm not ready yet..

2009-10-25T21:00:00.003+08:00

Do I have to tell you more? Yes, I'm so not ready for this new sem. Yes, I know, I can't do anything about it. Go over it, yeah right. Why am I so lazy? To know that my previous sem result is really sucks, REALLY REALLY SUCKS! So don't wasting your time to know how much I've got A or what's my cgpa bla bla. Ok? I should have more motivation to endure this new sem but to think that I can't do, I know I can't, score cgpa 4flat, I lost my determination. Tell me how, how to think positively, how to have that nerds-have-spirit and how to score my subjects! Mom and Dad really worry about me, more after they've know my result. They always ask me to stop surfing the net, stop playing here and there, read read read, study study study. My future is wobbling, really on the borderline! My my, I feel want to cry! It's hard you know. So hard. When what you're taking right now is what you're freakingly don't want, far from your interest. It becomes tak ikhlas, the pure feeling of love to study is not there.*sigh*

-Ya Allah, kuatkan hati hambaMu ini untuk hadapi dugaan yang telah Kau tetapkan untukku dan kuatkanlah imanku ini untuk sentiasa mencuba mendampingiMu..-

Tribute to the House Captains 06/07

2009-10-22T04:51:00.009+08:00

Tadi kemas2 files dan folders dalam laptop sbb dia ni dah lembab semacam dah. Terjumpa pulak gambar2 lama masa zaman muda remaja kat skolah. Dan aku teramatlah suka 2 gambar sengal ini..

Oh terima kasih..kami mmg sengal.. dan waktu ini sgt la bising sape nak duk bwh skali..ksian hanim..:D

okay, skrg tukar tempat..fair n square..nsb baik aku x duk bwh skali..baru aku prasan betapa seksanya ika..hehehe

seriously weyh, aku sngt rndu kat korang. skrg dh susah nak gather mcm kat seseri dulu..tiap2 hari jmpe tp class gastisia/helpilia masa form4 dan antara bakerara/cattleya masa form 5.. smpai naik muak korg tgok muka aku en? haha. ade je masalah yg dibincngkan..tggungjawab diberi sepenuh hati kami laksanakan. ^^;
masa form4 dulu aku sama kelas helpilia dgn hanim, mira kelas sebelah, gastisia dan ika nun jauh di kelas adioda. tapi masuk form5, aku dan ika sama kelas bakerara, mira dan hanim di kelas cattleya. ni maksudnya kami tak boleh duk jauh. haha.

dan yang tak boleh blahnya, kami siap ade pangkat lg antara kami sndiri, pangkat rekaan semata-mata.:D

ketua kami namanya nur amirah bt mohd rizal yong.

muka mcm chinese kan? sbb die mix chinese-malay. :)
die la yg slalu bg idea2 bernas klu ade problem atau event masa kat seseri dulu.
contohnya bakar lemang beramai2 untuk jamuan raya kat GAS (gelanggang anggerik sari)..haha..ape jadi dgn lemang tu wey? alih2 order je.:D
dan die jugak pendengar yg setia.
wlupun aku dan dia masing2 punya masalah remaja
dan slalunya aku je yg cerita masalah aku, die tetap dengar dan bg advices yg cukup power dan berkesan utk aku.
dia la tmpat aku luahkan selain drpd mak aku.
sampai la skrg. :)
mira dh fly..slamat smpai kat canada(veterinary) masa bulan puasa hri tu.
nmpak gaya dia everything tak jadi masalah, ye la. she is a strong girl.
campak kat mane pn bleh survive.
mira, miss you v. much!!!!! nak mkn kek yg kau msak..
huhu~ xD

penolongnya..noratikah bt abd. halim.
dia ni kuat study.
klu ade meeting antara kitorg jarang skali nak nmpak muka die.
klu dtg meeting pn msti ade je buku kat tgn die.
dan yg bestnya rumah die jarang skali ade masalah.
ataupun die tak cerita kat kitorg, tak tau la pulak.
wlupun mcm tu, tggungjwb die tak pernah abaikan.
wlupun org slalu salah anggap dgn die ni, tp honestly, die seorang kakak yg baik.
the way she cares others is quite different tapi aku tau die ni penyayang orgnya.^^;
lagi satu, die ni aktif sgt dgn netball die.
kapten netball masa skolah, hebat en?
skrg ni pun die still main netball lagi, wlupun spatutnya die kene study sbb dah nak gi oversea.
tapi i believe she can strive to the excellence.
fly gi india, further in dentistry. insyaAllah.:)

setiausahanya..aku..tp takde la berat pn jd s/u ni..sebab post ni pun rekaan je.

bndahari kami..nur najwa hanim bt. ab. latiff. (btol en aku eja?^^;)
seorang yg komited dgn keje wlupun dulu hidup pnuh dgn masalah remaja.
skrg kat kolej...errr...ape name lupe la. tapi dekat dgn hospital besar ipoh. (medic)
masa form4, wktu mula2 dia masuk aku merasakan die ni sorang yg pelik.
takde la aku tak suka die tapi die ni lain drpd yg lain.unik.hehe
tapi skrg aku tau, keunikan die tu la yg buat die special..uhuk~ tersedak aku! :P
kadang2 aku rasa die benci aku, sbb die slalu buat muka.
tapi aku tau yg die ni sbnarnya syg kat aku, kan hanim? :D
slalu gak dgr masalah aku. dan die ni memahami aku sbb kami berdua punye masalah yg sama.
Alhamdulillah skrg takde lagi masalah2 kebudak2an tu.
die ni sedap klu menyanyi. kalah siti nurhaliza.
tapi yg peliknya klu bercakap secara normal, aku yg 10batu jauhnya pn boleh dgr. hiperbola.hehe
aku suka dengar die gelak
wlupun die jarang nak gelak dgn aku.
ketawa die tu buat aku senang hati.
apa2 pun, jemput2 la dtg rumah aku ye? (^0^)

skrg semuanya dah bawak haluan masing2.
susah skali nak jumpe.
harap korang semua tak lupakan aku bile dah berjaya nanti.
ntah2, semua keje kat hospital yg sama..eh tak..mira tak boleh, vet hospital lain.:D

" ya Allah, tunjukkanlah kami jalan yang benar. sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Mengetahui kebaikan bagi setiap satu kejadian"

Random..

2009-10-19T14:33:00.003+08:00

It seems like Chinen is growing up and much taller than Yamada now. D: Oh well, I love Daiki more.^^;

I'm shocked to see G-Dragon's hairstyle in 'A Boy' MV. Taeyang's new MV 'Where U At' is not appealing to me but the song is awesome.

My Internet speed is killing me! I can't download anything this month. *sigh*

Till then, have a nice day people.

Faith...

2009-10-17T18:04:00.002+08:00

Some people think it's 'normal' but I think it's NOT 'normal'.

This incident happened last week. Yeah, I know. I should write about it the day that thing happened. But, hey, this is my blog. So, suka hati laaa! My mom and I went shopping to Tesco cause I told her that I was so desperate to go out, it didn't matter where but I.MUST.GO.OUT.FROM.THIS.HOUSE. Okay. After we walked and grabbed some items here and there, we headed to the counter and so we need to pass by that Non-Halal section that selling those like pork and alcoholic drinks. There was two males at that section, looking/finding a bottle or two of alcoholic drinks. I heard something like this :

A : No, not that one. It's over my budget and I don't like it. (Bukan, bukan yang tu. Tu mahal sangat, aku tak suka yang tu)
B : Wasn't you drank this on the other day? (Bukan hari tu kau minum yang ni ke?)

It does sound common, right? But it's not common because they are MUSLIM! How the hell do I know they're muslim? First, their faces look like Malays, and we know that 99% Malays in Malaysia are muslim. After I heard that conversation, I stopped and....I don't know where did I got the gut to stare at them, and yes, I stared at them, looking at what they were doing. And and they smiled 'innocently' at me, put back the bottles and rushed to the counter. If they're non-muslim, why do they need to care if I look at them? For non-muslim, buying the non-halal stuffs is considered normal..common, but for muslim, it's prohibited, HARAM! Those two guys are %*#@%&*!!!!!!

Different people has different level of faith to Allah. May Allah always bless us.

Ntah ape-ape..-__-

2009-10-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

Tanya je la kawan2 aku buat ape cuti ni, mesti ada je benda2 yang berfaedah yang diorang buat. Contohnya Mirae, ade gak keluar jalan2 dengan members, dengan family. Tanya la Nikmah, ade gak dia buat open house, lepak dengan Lya. Su pulak hujung minggu ni datang Ipoh, cuti2 Malaysia, nak pergi Lost World of Tambun. Cakap pasal Lost World, walaupun tempat tu punya la dekat dengan rumah, jalan kaki pun boleh beb! Tapi sekali pun aku tak pernah menjejak kat situ. xD Gila baik aku ni. Haha.

Nak suruh aku keluar dengan members, semua ade kat KL-Selangor. Jiran2 aku kebanyakannya budak bawah umur, macam mane la nak buat member. xD

So sepanjang cuti ni aku tak berjaya lagi keluar rumah, I mean, keluar jalan2. Aku ade la keluar rumah, angkat kain. Hadoii~ Ingat nak pergi carik buku, tak carik2 gak. Nak bawak kereta pergi sendiri mesti ar abah tak bagi. Sedihnya dengan diri aku sendiri. :P

Tanya aku buat ape cuti ni, aku 24jam depan Chunnie, takpun depan tv. Ingatkan bertambah berat badan. Ye la, tak buat ape2, duduk je. Timbang2 turun la 1kg. Hampeh! Lately asyik turun berat je. Bila ingat balik, oh ye, kadang2 aku tak makan pun sepanjang hari. Minum air je. xD

Esei pendek ni ditaip menunjukkan aku memang dah takde keje.

Sebelum aku berusaha untuk tidur, try open webpage ni - http://www.engrish.com/
Kelakar. Tapi itu la kenyataan. Japanese try to speak English, but they just can't speak it right. Direct translations kot. :D

Oh, nak start balik belajar Japanese language. Gambatte!! xD

東京DOGS (Tokyo DOGS)

2009-10-12T05:18:00.004+08:00

Other than My Girl, which main character is acted by Aiba Masaki, another drama that I freakingly want to watch is:

I want to watch this!! What a combination! Two good looking guys act together as the lead roles, dammit! It's too eye candy!xD I can't wait for it. It'll be on aired starting this 19 Oct at Fuji TV, in Japan. Well, need to wait for it to be subbed, cause my vocab for Japanese is as tiny as bacteria. ^^;

Now, why Astro doesn't provide any Japan's TV channels?*sigh*

http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Tokyo_DOGS

here, read the synopsis by yourself. :D

Drawing

2009-10-09T21:16:00.019+08:00

I'm bored, seriously! Staying home without my siblings around, it's weird cause I used with this nuisance atmosphere. Well, I have a quite big family. We altogether including my parents, we are 10, so means that I have 8 siblings. Conclusion here is: I'm bored laaa!!

Guess what, because I've nothing to do, I tidy up my room, just a part of it cause I'm so lazy. Haha. I found two files that remind me how I was crazy with drawing during my secondary school. I'm not that good nor even that close to Ohno Satoshi's talent. I make drawing as my hobby, yes only as a hobby. Not too serious about it, just for fun. I once thought to enter a manga drawing competition, but I don't have enough skills to use all the drawing equipments, like the paper that you use to make some kind of shading effects on your drawing etc. They are complicated. If you don't believe me, just ask any cartoonist or errr..manga-nist? or whatever they call them. I only have a few special pens which I only use for my drawing. They are expensive too! One pen costs me around rm4-5. I have 6 of it, from 0.1 to 0.8. So how much I paid? Count it yourselves.

There was once I completed a manga and gave it to one of my bestfriends, but sadly I don't have the copy of it. It took my 3 months to finish together with the dialogue, cover page and etc. I wonder if she still have it. :D

Back to the files I found. There are quite a lot of drawings, manga mostly, with no motif. Haha. Like I said, I draw only for fun. xD

I took some pictures, and scanned some of the drawings, here, take a look:

This one, I made it myself from a box. Yea, memang takde keje. :P

Open sesame!! LOL xD

I drew this picture when I was form 2, or is it form 3? ~_~
It should be the cover page of a manga that I supposed to make and send to enter this one competition but I got no time. I managed to do this one,,,ONLY? Hahaha. xD

I wonder what's this drawing for....advertisement?LOL xD And the girl looks like she has a big head, I failed with the body balance here. ^^; Plus, IT IS NOT FINISH YET!! xD

And this is? Like I said, some of the drawings have no meaning.. By the way, it is a rose if you can't see it as it is. Well, its not good though. I understand that. -__-"

There are much more but since the Internet speed's getting slower and there is a reminder pop up on my window saying that I'm close to the exceed limit, dammit! But when I checked back, I'm far away from the exceed limit. Whaddaheck! Oh, I don't think that anyone want to copy or download those drawings up here but if you want, IF, you're free to take them. ^^

I can draw portraits too but I'm more focusing on manga or comic. Once, I drew portrait of Michael Owen (I was his freak fan back ago) and gave it to one of my boy friends. Again, I don't have a copy of it. xD

I don't know whether I should continue with my drawing or not. Don't ask me why I stopped drawing.*sigh* But, yeah! I think I'm going to restart back with my hobby. xD I've an idea to make a comic or manga based on a fanfic but I've a difficulty to decide which fanfic and from which group : Arashi? DBSK? Big Bang? LOL. If I make one comic from each band, it will take about hmmm..9 months? or a year to finish them.

My skills' getting shade off, cause I haven't practice drawing for many years. I think if I draw anything now, it will be much terrible than when I was 13-15 year old. xD

This guy has inspired me to start again with my drawing. ^^ Who? He is OHNO SATOSHI. How he inspired me? Go google up yourself on how much creative he is with his drawings, clay arts and so many other awesome arts. I have a dream, just like Ohno's dream, (well, he already achieved his dream) to open an art gallery, haha. yea, my dream when I was a kid. Not that I'm now too old, but I don't know, is there any times for me to do all those drawings, if I take medical course? I don't think so.

Okay, I need to stop here. The Internet usage's reminder is annoying..=__='

Because you were there..

2009-10-07T23:56:00.009+08:00

The dashboard's clock shown it's 2100. The cold atmosphere can be felt till the spines. I walked through the darkness at the park. The moon was shining, giving some light brightness to people to enjoy another perfect night to date. I saw a few couples, sat on the provided benches. I was wandering around, watching all of them talking, laughing, tickling each others. I shouldn't be here. My intention to be keen on the lovely park was ruined with the presence of those couples. I went back straight to my car, drove to the nearby town, looking for some other place that can calm my mind. Last night incident, kept following me. I can't stop from thinking about it eventhough I actively tried to ignore. I just wanted to shouted out all those irritated things that gathered in my heart. But I just can't. I lost my feeling to do every single thing that I have and I need to do. I tuned in the radio, trying to forget it, tapping my fingers following the music, but my mind was somewhere else. I stopped at 24hour shop, with no point, looking at all those stuffs selling there. I grabbed few cups of instant noodle, bars of chocolate, cans of softdrink, and any kind of junk food that caught my eyes. I don't know why I need all those. To keep my thought aside? "You are my only, even when the sky is falling down~". Don't bullshitting me with that line! If the sky falls down, you won't even remember me to safe. I turned off the radio. I drove quickly to home. I wished someone can accompany me, share my sadness with. Filling in my emptiness. But I'm all alone. I don't have anyone else accept my cat, which is always here to hear all my feelings.

I locked the door. As soon as I put all the foods in the kitchen's cabinet, I walked up the stairs, heading to the master bedroom. Put on the towel and walked to the bathroom. There, I cried hardly. Again. I hoped so much that I can face all these calmly, just like when my only brother passed away. I don't know why I can't. It hurts my chest so much. I know I can't forever be like this. It's not the end of the world. I washed off my tears and moved to the shower, wishing the hot water can soothing myself, and my heart.

The warm nice light came from the outside striking on my face. It's already 8 am in the morning. I woke up fast, went to bath and got myself quickly to work. If can I took a day off, but a pile of papers need my attention to edit them. On my way to the five-floors-building which is only six blocks away from my house, I bought a cup of coffee and a doughnut for breakfast. Everyone moved fast like every second is so precious that you can't waste. When I pushed the door in, someone shouted out my name from the back;

'Sakurai-san!'

...to be continued :)

Too many surprises..

2009-10-06T18:11:00.002+08:00

Bukanlah perkara baru, tapi aku noticed banyak betul perkara2 yang aku tak jangka berlaku. Satu, sejak aku ade facebook ni (semua sebab influences dari bestfriend aku dan kakak2 aku) aku perasan la kan semua orang dah berubah. Perubahan yang aku tak sangka. Malas la nak cakap perubahan ape, banyak tak terkata. Yang paling ketara semua kawan2 aku dah berpunya. Surprisingly, orang yang aku tak sangka pun terikat jugak. :) Aku tak nak comment ape2 sangat pasal ni, pandai2 la bawak diri ye kawan2. Tapi yang aku perasan lagi, semua geng2 sekolah aku dulu maintain solo, termasuk la aku. xD Biler aku tanya diorang, macam2 jawapan aku dapat.

Aku: Weyh, kau dah ade balak ke sekarang? Busy semacam je.^^
BFF1: Mane ade. Aku tak suke ar couple2 ni. Leceh. Aku busy ke? Mana de..Kalau aku tak layan kau tu maksudnye aku malas nak layan kau..Gagagaga!
Aku: Ish, sampai hati betul laaaa...

Aku: Weyh, ape jadi kau dgn crush kau dulu? Dah declare ke?
BFF2: Haha. Aku crush gitu2 je la. Tak serious sampai nak bawak ke jinjang pelamin. Solo lagi best kot. Aku rase couple tu leceh la.
Aku: Same!! High five! xD

Jangan ingat aku ni busy body plak. Aku takkan serbu BFF aku tibe2 dengan soalan2 macam ni sebagai permulaan borak kitorang. Conversation ni selalunye terjadi biler kitorang cakap pasal guys dalam movies atau dramas, tak kire la Jepun ke, Korea ke, Barat ke, Timur ke, Arab ke.. Pastu mesti la keluar soalan2 cenggini. Kadang2 diorang tanya gak aku. Jawapan?

Aku: Malas la. Couple makes trouble. xD Lagipun aku rasa cam phobia. Banyak kisah2 buruk pasal couple or mates yang terjadi kat orang2 yang aku sayang, tak kira la dah kawin ke belum. Kadang2 rase nak jauhkan diri dari benda2 macam ni so nanti takde la aku kawin. ;P

Tapi, semuanya ditentukan Allah. Kalau ade jodoh tak boleh nak lari. Asalkan dapat hidup bahagia sudah.

Okay, kedua plak. Aku agak terkejut dengan minat kawan2 aku sekarang. Macam2. Haha. Aku rase diorang pun mesti terkejut dengan minat aku sekarang. Well, ade la kawan2 sekolah aku dulu yang hanya menghadap buku 24jam, okay bukan la 24jam tapi tergolong dalam orang2 yang baik dan jauh dari semua fandoms thingy ni, ade yang suke Matsumoto Jun.o__O Bukan la aku kate tak boleh, tapi mostly suke Korean boys/boybands mcm 2PM, Suju, DBSK, FT Island, BigBang,Kimbum. Tibe2 muncul plak yang suke Matsujun. Suka giler aku! xD Tapi biler tanya tau tak Arashi, tak tau.=__=' Takpe2, ni mesti kes tengok HanaDan.:)

Aish. aku ade intention nak avoid cakap pasal fandom things kat sini, cause I've another blog to talk, to rant crazily over the fandoms, tapi mesti ade some part in any entry jugak. Tak boleh nak elak. Maafkan daku yep.:)

Ketiga, haha. kelakar je. Kakak aku cakap one of her cats kenc***g kat laptop die. Sampai dah msuk kat bahagian hard disk.^^; Kesian tapi kelakar. Ntah ape masalah kucing tu, nak buat territory die plak. Yang kucing aku nak plak tak tahan dengan kegedikan nyer. Pagi2 kul 2,3 tu time aku nak online die mula la datang menyemak nak manja2. Siap kissing2 aku lagi. Haishh~ Manja sgt la kucing ni. Tapi kalau time main, haaaa.. dah berape byk calar ade kat tangan aku ni. isk isk! Nasib baik la aku sayang kat kau Tommy..:)

Okay, nak gi tgok segala citer yang ade dlm xternal HD.:)

Another one long sem to go..

2009-10-05T00:21:00.003+08:00

I'm home. Yatta!! A week without my lappy and the net was killing me.xD I need to focus with my study thus I MUST left it home cause there's a BIG tendency that I was going to online rather than study. ;)

But, talking about the exam, it was so damn DIFFICULT!! Maths, Chem, Bio, all are hard to answer. Eventhough I did revised all of them but, still.......urghh~! Actually, I think it's not because the papers were hard. It's all because of my last minute study. Waiting for the result is another hard thing to do. Okay, enough about the exam stuff.

I got my Arashi album today. ^^; But, I'm quite disappointed cause I ordered for the Japan version but I got the HK one. Still, the benefit goes to me cause the HK version is much cheaper. Haha. Lying, eventhough I bought the cheaper one, the money was spent for another DVD of them. Dammit. xD

Next I'll talk about the Blues. I mean Blue=Chelsea. Haha. Chelsea vs. Liverpool. Wohoo~ Chelsea won 2-0 babe! I was once a Liverpool freak but since Owen changed his club, it fade. So I turned into Chelsea since I saw Lampard (i wish i can marry him.haha) and Terry in World Cup which they play for England, so I gone through searching for their club and it's Chelsea, till now..eventhough I was terribly sad for the changing of the coach, no more freaking awesome but strict Jose Mourinho, Chelsea is still the best! ^^;

"Nicolas Anelka and Florent Malouda scored as Chelsea defeated Liverpool this afternoon at Stamford Bridge. The first half saw both sides begin cautiously with limited chances at both ends.

As the half progressed both Nicolas Anelka and Fernando Torres had headed attempts on goal that were saved comfortably. Albert Riera almost scored with a long-range effort towards the end of the first half. Chelsea broke the deadlock in the 59th minute through an Anelka strike from close range.

Liverpool struggled to break down the home side's defence until Yossi Benayoun was introduced midway through the second half. The Israeli wasted a great chance to score late on, but not before Malouda had extended Chelsea's lead after powerful work by Didier Drogba. Liverpool were on top in the early stages with Steven Gerrard floating out to the left flank and sending a number of crosses into the box.

Chelsea were able to cope with these comfortably as Ricardo Carvalho marshalled the penalty area. Chelsea tried to venture forward in the 10th minute, connecting a few passes together in midfield, but whenever they got together any momentum Javier Mascherano was there to break up the play and win the ball back for Liverpool. Chelsea created the first real chance of the game in the 28th minute, Michael Essien found himself up field on the left and pulled the ball back onto his right foot, turning Glen Johnson.

The Ghanian crossed the ball towards the back post as Nicolas Anelka stole a yard on Emiliano Insua. The Frenchman connected with a glancing header that was saved by Pepe Reina low to his left. Gerrard had an opportunity to open the scoring with a free-kick slightly to the left of centre.

The English international couldn't control his strike as his attempt went over the cross-bar. It was too central to have troubled Henrique Hilario in the Chelsea goal. Essien had a decent chance towards the end of the first half, Frank Lampard won a corner for his side as his shot deflected off Martin Skertel. Essien was lurking at the edge of the penalty area and as the ball was cleared it fell to the Ghanian who struck the ball with his right foot. His first attempt was blocked but the rebound broke for Essien who took the ball into the penalty area and hit a low shot towards the near post. Reina was equal to it and saved without a problem."

Credit goes to Goal.com.

Okay, next is picspam. The pic is funny, really amuses me! Hahaha.xD

Others are fine but Daesung and Taeyang??? Hahahaha. Urghh~ My stomach hurts cause this excessive laugh. xDD

Arghhh!!!!!!!!

2009-09-23T00:22:00.008+08:00

LAST FEW DAYS ARE SUCK!!

celoteh di hari2 akhir ramadhan

2009-09-19T01:40:00.002+08:00

Satu perkara yang aku tak paham:
Kalau aku buat salah, grammatical error dalam pertuturan atau penulisan bahasa Inggeris, aku mesti ditegur dan dimarah. Tapi bila aku guna bahasa Melayu rojak yang tak wujud pun dalam kamus Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka, tak ade pulak kena marah atau ditegur. Pelikkan?

Jadi, fikirkanlah sebelum nak kutuk kesalahan aku dalam tatabahasa Inggeris, ya aku tau aku lemah dalam bahasa penjajah ni, tapi kenapa bahasa kita sendiri pun tak disanjung dulu? Cermin diri dulu sebelum mengata takut nanti terkena batang hidung sendiri.

-Renung-renungkanlah-

Hari ni tak tahu kenapa penat sangat. Pagi lepas jumpa my orthodontist, pergi cari kain ela, nak buat baju kurung versi bukan raya. Penat tengok sana sini, tak reti nak pilih. Rasa2nya dalam berjuta kain yang ada kat situ, aku berjaya dapatkan sepasang je kain warna hijau dalam masa satu jam. Kesian mak abah kena teman anak diorang yang tak reti pilih kain ni. Lain kali mak beli je kain ape2, sure pakai punya. xD

Balik je rumah aku terus syahid kecil.

Petang kakak dan adik aku sampai dari KL.
Heh, apsal adik aku makin diam dan aku yang makin bising. Kina, dah nak exam tak elok cakap banyak..^^;
Mak cakap dia dapat trial 9a tak silap aku 7a1. Cis, kalah aku. Haha. Kata nak jadi doktor, patut la bio a1. hurmm, aku? a2 pun dh bersyukur. tapi kalau physics a2, aku bunuh diri. *joking*
Dulu masa kitorang kecik2, adik aku kata nak jadi engineer. Aku terpaksa mengalah. Sebab tu bapak aku suruh aku jadi doktor, supaya tak la semua anak2 dia berkecimpung dalam kerjaya yang berkaitan dengan physics dan maths je. Redha dan ikut je.

Tengok2 bila dah besar dia cakap - physics bosan bio lagi best. Haish~ rasa nak hentuk je kepala dia. Nasib baik dia satu2nya adik aku. Ok, insyaAllah ade hikmat di sebalik semua ni.

Bajet hari ni nak buat lagi satu jenis kuih raya. Penat, terbantut niat murni aku tu. xD
Esok kot, insyaAllah, kalau tak ade aral melintang.

Setiap kali aku bukak je buku atau nota bio, 2-3 perenggan baca lepas tu aku terlelap. Sampai biler la nak habis baca. Tak boleh jadi. Aku tukar baca chem pulak. 2-3 pages tapi tak terlelap walaupun menguap banyak kali. Alhamdulillah. ^^;
Tapi tak tau la biler aku boleh khatam semua ni.

Tiba-tiba ringtone last farewell bergema, lantas aku tekan butang kekunci handphone aku. CD dah sampai, wohoo~
tapi aku skrg kat Ipoh la auntie, salah masa. isk! nak kena amik A.S.A.P. tak bleh jadi, nikmah aku minta tolong.
Terima kasih daun keladi, daun kelapa, daun pandan dan segala macam daun lagi dekat nikmah. sekali lagi aku menyusahkan dia selepas kes tu.

Nak download MVs HSJ. Tapi aku tak tau nak download yang mana. Tunggu Heading to the Ground episod 2 di hardsubbed. Banyak pulak nak download. Internet makin lembab sejak beberapa hari ni.

baru je jalan2 dekat blog LJ. 5x10 DVDs?o____O
aku rasa macam nak tercabut jantung! Pandai betul uncle J ni buat duit. Satu2 dia keluarkan. Tau2 je fans dia banyak duit, kecuali aku. Okay, aku tak nak yang tu. Aku nak tunggu DVD konsert dan album baru. :D

No sleep~

2009-09-15T09:04:00.004+08:00

Don't ever introduce new games to me. I can spend three days two night without sleep with 'them'. My roomie knows how crazy I'd be if I played computer games. Last night, one of my friends challenge me to beat the high score in one Internet computer game. And I accept it. Almost half an hour later I managed to high scored. But, I was starting to like the game. So I played again and again and again until my mom came down stairs at 5am, saying :"Eh, tak tido ke? Mak naik main, mak bangun tido main lagi.".Heee~ Yes mom, your daughter is becoming like Ninomiya Kazunari! xD Actually, I already have this BAD habit even before I know Arashi. So, I can't blame him for this. Haha.

Continued with US Open Championship for Men's Singles final. I still can't accept the truth that Federer lose, against Potro from Argentina. This is the first time I ever see Potro, maybe because it's been awhile I didn't watch tennis matches. Saying about Juan Martin Del Potro (correct me if I spelled wrongly), he is strong and energetic! Everytimes he served, the ball is like the wind! Federer couldn't catch it and my dad and I were too shocked with his power. 131 miles/hour??o___O He is super strong. No wonder Nadal lose to him in semi-final.

Last night too, my sister and I spent 2 hours to make kuih siput goreng. So damn tired! Guess what? Only one tin is filled with that kuih.-___-" I need to make it double today, as I promised to make at least 2 or 3 tins of it. Still don't start with my sister requested-chocolate chip cookies. When to start? I'm tired playing computer games and my eyes strained after watching 4hours that final tennis match. Need to sleep now..Really!T___T

By the way, I'm downloading Yamada related stuffs and U-Know's new drama : Heading towards the Ground. Yamada ne, I don't mind and don't care what are people saying about him, I'm totally absorbed into him now. Haha. Even my icon for ym is no more Sho-chan. Gomen ne Sho-chan? xD Just noticed, I don't have the same interest like most of my friends. I prefer Yamada more than Chinen. Hehehe. :)

Enough here. Going to take a nap. Will make do of it.^^;

I'm home.

2009-09-14T07:58:00.015+08:00

I'm home already for three days but I haven't started with my revision yet. Holidays for Raya + revision period, how am I supposed to balance them.... I know most probably my friends are now really studying at their homes. Me, heh. So impossible. Holidays are holidays, time for us to relax and enjoy of placing self away from any heavy work like study. Hehehe. And my dad said so too. "Why would you need to study if it's holiday?" "Rilex2 je la". Okay dad. You're totally true. Muahahaha. >;D Nope, actually my dad doesn't want me to stress too much due to my study. Am I going to be bald, cause too much focusing on study? Hell NO! I need to eat much more food containing vitamin E..or is it vitamin D? xD

Going to shopping a little bit more before starting to make cookies. Right, see, how busy I am? Hahaha. Dahh~ an excuse to run away from the all-words-Biology books. Since my sister told me that mom's demanding to eat kuih siput goreng, well, I'm going to make 2 or 3 tins of it. Too much? Don't worry, my family members all like to eat, including me. Gambarimasu! xD

FB-ing is another major barrier for me to study. Hahaha. I'm into it recently, as most of my ex-schoolmates kept asking whether I'm having an account or not. Yea, I have it now. ;D

You Scored as Sakurai Sho

You're most compatible with Sho! You have a good head on your shoulders and have a broad outlook on life. Sho seems to prefer someone who is able to perceive the world and take it in stride - with him, you get a traveling companion. Results based on a 2006 translated interview about ideal marriages - therefore, you may want to take everything with a
grain of salt. ;)

Sakurai Sho

75%

Matsumoto Jun

73%

Ohno Satoshi

73%

Aiba Masaki

70%

Ninomiya Kazunari

58%

Thanks to Chii and Amie for the link. Hahaha. You both make my day! Wohoo~ And surprisingly Matsumoto-san as the second person together with Oh-chan after Sho-chan. ^^ I don't know how much accurate and based on what criteria do they measure our compatibility. But I do believe if Sho isn't the first in rank, then it's going to be Matsumoto-san. Why? Because we have a lot of similarities that people don't know, and I don't want to reveal or show them publicly. I'm mysterious? Secretive? -___-" and I openly admit that I'm a bit fall for him (Syu neechan, Sarah, please don't kill me) hahaha. Do you see the lowest name? How'd I say the result? Hmmm.. 58%. Isn't it too far below? We're not compatible, that's all.

So lazy to update my blog. Let alone the LJ. Need to revise! Have to! No excuse!

I don't know what title for this entry should be.^^;

2009-08-23T17:48:00.005+08:00

I just got back from shopping for Raya shoes.Demo ne,I didn't buy any.xD Hahaha. My sisters, one bought a shirt, and the other got a belt. Me, none. :) Actually, when it comes to shopping for my shoes or bags, usually it will take forever, for me to find something that really..errr..pretty? nice? I'm not choosey person. I just can't make a decision anything related to fashion. xD That is why, I need a friend or someone who can direct me or to pursue me to buy at least something, eventhough i'll say no no at first, but i'll buy it somehow cause there is someone telling me the shoes or the bags is nice,other than going back with empty hands.^^; And just now, my sisters were looking shoes for me too, but still we didn't find any pairs that are really suitable to make as a Raya shoes or sandals. Almost everything is outdated-fashioned shoes. Hahaha.

I have two assignments to be done, one presentation this coming Friday. And I've done nothing so far. Hahaha. Laziness is controlling me. How can I improve. Haishh~~ My Biology result is exactly as my expectation. Average, or a bit lower than average I supposed. Harharhar! I just not too fond with Biology eventhough I'm taking course that really needs me to have a strong Biology knowledge. Demo, I prefer Chem, Physics and Maths more. Urghh~ Orait, stop complaining laa.. Gambarimasu! ;)

And leenoux a.k.a. Izzat had done a very nice superbly done fan video;

It's sooooooo..priceless! I just love this video so much.;)
Credit to her if taking,okay?

Salam Ramadhan,,

2009-08-22T21:37:00.004+08:00

Some few things I want to share here

First, Happy Ramadhan to all of us, all Muslimin and Muslimat,,
Grab this chance to do as many deeds as we can,,
To improve Iman, strengthen our strong faith on Him,,
And to be a better muslim,,
InsyaAllah,,

Second thing is, well, I just watched Aiba new drama preview

xDDD
He's too cute with that specs,, and smart,, and awesome!!
I really can't wait for it!!

Third is my result for the quiz I've done :

You're SHO (alias Sho-kun) SAKURAI!! You're one hip, happenin', all-around heartbreaker cutie, yo! (haha, funny though xDD)You just got that natural "coolness" within you, chicks dig you and dudes want to BE like you! You got the style, the phat beats, the fresh rhythm, and other than that hardcoreness that you possess, you're still the cute, sweet "boy next door" everyone has known you always! But don't let your ghetto-style fool anyone--- you're the bad-ass topknotch Japanese Ivy Leaguer that would even wow the evil critics even more about yourself! Get on wit yo' bad self, yo!

I think, that are all Sho's characters back ago. Well, he's different nowadays compared to when he was young (okay, he's 27 now). But the charming, cuteness, coolness, still exist. What's the difference? Hot-tempered, I guess..xD

You can try answering the questions :) here

I'm holding back the tears,,

2009-08-21T14:59:00.003+08:00

She really drives me crazy,,
Oh why I'm easily pissed off by hearing what she said,,
Every single thing came from human being's tongue is really poisonous,,
Especially when it comes from our nearest relative,,
Or our beloved ones,,
It's hard to swallow it,,
I'm trying to endure the pain deep inside my heart,,
I'm trying not to feel really down JUST because of her,,
I don't want to be a cry-baby,,
Am I that strong,,
Just pray for Allah will guide me and you,,

Mind your own!!

2009-08-19T16:36:00.004+08:00

Another post with some light okay, some light swearing words. It's actually none. Mind? Back off!! I don't need you to be my reader and I don't ask you to read even a few words here.

You said what..Me? Hot tempered? Sulky? Moody? What else do you want to label me? Fat? Ugly? What's next? Yea, those are me. Thank you a very lovely much for making me such a perfect girl to be teased of. Oh yea, you're another Ms. Perfect that I've known so far, so cute, so kind. Uhuh! I wonder~ I'm feeling want to spit on your face, right now laa stupid jerk!

I can stand the hot weather, I can stand the slow internet connection, I can stand a long boring talk or ceramah or whatsoever, but I CAN'T STAND BEING A SECOND WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baka!!!!!!!!!!

So what?OF ANGER AND FRUSTRATED

2009-08-18T20:20:00.007+08:00

Okay fine! I know you're too fucking knowledgeable in that field but do you have to highlight others' weaknesses in such abnormally unmanners?! Shishhh! We are human beings and NORMAL human beings make mistakes. So do I and others but you? Alright, I doubt it. Don't believe me? Eyh hello?! You're Ms. PERFECT, kan???? Of course you'd said that cause even such a tiny bacteria mistake would never happened in your world. Clapping hands just for you, being the first people ever never had make a mistake. Congratulation! Oh GREAT, I lost my integrity just because of your words. You should be ashamed of yourself! Speaking of others, oh hello, please look at the mirror la. Stupid!! Okay, you see, i'm not saying that field is not important, IT IS DAMN IMPORTANT especially when it comes to this fucking material, high-tech, millenium world. I believe people would die if we don't have a little or a bit idea about it. But wait, it is something that you can learn here and there. And you know what, even you live for 1000 years, I bet you, you're still uncapable to be the most intelligent, the number one expert among the experts, the most knowledgeable person in that field. Cause you know why? Those are all Allah's knowledge and His knowledge is vast enough for you to learn. To be frank, just be grateful as you're former than me in that field cause it's all according to Allah's will and Allah gives His love fairly to His people. You said you're good in it, fine! You're just achieving such a minor or even I can't say minor.....errr..virus?? His knowledge. I'm stressing here HIS knowledge. With just a wink, swuuussshhh!! Gone! Be grateful, and you don't have to complaint or to tell others' mistakes, reminder. Stupid! Stupid!

Dad said two died because of H1N1 at his school, yea my Dad's teaching, so? And when I watched the news just now, said that only 3 death cases of H1N1 were reported, I was like WTH?? They didn't include those two cases just in Tasek, Ipoh, Perak?! Hellish when would they announce darurat?! Liar! Liar!

Stupid!!!!!!

With you.

2009-08-14T02:02:00.003+08:00

It's nearly 2am or exactly 2am or few minutes past 2am or..whatever la..

Currently, I'm absorbed into this song~With You
Guess who sings it?
I won't tell ya, find by yourself.^^;

Just finished our first event of hisbah.
Chou fun!!xD
I played futsal, and my team won 3rd place. Yay!
But, I tripped and my knee injured a bit.
It's a bit difficult for me to solat. lol
Never mind, as long as we had fun just now, ne? ;)
Then we ate durian, however I only able to take a few 'ulas'.
Cause I'm having cough, so I tried to limit the amount of durian for myself.
You see, when I'm healthy, fully healthy, I can eat at least two HEALTHY (read:big) durian.
That's why I'm big.Hahahaha

And and me and Nikmah won the prize for the room contest. Yay!
The best thing is we get two mugs, yellow and blue colours.
Did you missed something?
They are YELLOW+BLUE=??
Yayy! OHMIYA! :P
Okay,people can't understand this. Forget about it. xD

Need to touch up my Biology report.
And really need to sleep now cause I've 8am class tomorrow. Urghh~
Oyasuminasai~
Daaaaaaaaaa~

p/s: Dae's voice is such a lullaby.xD

Pagi2 buta

2009-08-13T01:15:00.003+08:00

Sejak aku kena 'benda' alah tu, sejak dari tu, aku takut sgt nak tido malam. Walaupun aku ngantuk tahap giler, once aku landing atas katil, terus x bleh tido. Menggigil kesejukan eventhough bilik panas tahap padang pasir. Badan aku sejuk tapi aku berpeluh, pelik? TAK. Sebab aku takut. Aku takut 'benda' tu jadi lagi kat aku. Biasanya klu orang takut lagi x nak stay up kan? Aku tak. Bukan aku nak cakap aku x takot stay up pagi2 buta sorang2 sampai kul 3-4 pagi, tapi aku lagi takot tido malam. Aku x bleh tido malam kat katil aku tu. Phobia? Ye la kot. Otak ni kan kreatif, jap lagi mula fikir bagai. Siot tol la. Aku penat tapi aku x bleh tido.Satu cara je,menghadapNya dan minta tolong kat Dia. InsyaAllah. Hopefully kepale ni xde ar fikir macam2. Daaaa~

Bad day~(warning:long post ahead)

2009-08-12T19:40:00.006+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with me today.
I'm easily pissed off right now! Hot temper? Yeah, you can say that.
I don't usually turn to the evil side of me.
But *sigh*, these past few days are REALLYnot my days.
Everything turns wrong.
And yesterday is the worst day for this week.
It's a bit childish if you read it but it's different for me.
I got a message from my Mom;
"When is your next appoinment? Mom and Dad are going to fetch your lil brother this 22nd."
I was like; ehhhhhh? What??
I told my Mom before that I can't go back this weekend, I HAVE to attend the appreciation night.
And at the end of this month, our campus will have some sort of Independence Day celebration. (suddenly).
So the only weekend available for me is on 21-23rd of August.
I'm desperately want to go back! My heart is not here though. I don't have the enthusiasm, to do anything. Even in the quizzes!
Mom told me just come back on 21st but...
What's the point I get back to hometown but there's no one at home?
I don't blame this to my parents, I really want to kill my lil bro if I can, RIGHT NOW!
Dad always said something like this, to me and to my sisters;
"Don't you three feel sorry to him (read:my lil bro)? He's far away from you girls and no one want to look after him."
Oh please! He's grown up! 17years old BIG boy! He can look after himself for sure!
The reason is because he's now in boarding school. I WAS also in boarding school!
But most of the time for balik kampung, I HAD to get the bus, my parents would never fetch me up unless I begging them, and definitely I wouldn't ask something that really troublesome. What the heck living in asrama (boarding school) but you can't be independent?!
Okay fine! Enough with my lil bro annoying thingy. But somehow I feel want to punch him, alright. Enough.

And today, I'm trying my best to cheer myself up, eventhough this news (read:I can't go back this month) constantly pop up in my mind, as early as in the morning!
Told you I have Bio quiz today but somehow, my lecturer postpone it to tomorrow. I'm pissed off!
Then, Ummu said something that really helps me.
"Wey, let's donate our blood?"
At first, I thought something like erghhh! I don't have the mood LOL.
But I changed my mind, maybe this can help me. Do something good, something really awesome thing today. And why not for the third time?
After we had our lunch, "Alright, let's go to AMF, donate our blood *grinning*"
Ummu like, "Ehhh? Seriously?"xD

After filled in all the forms, check the blood type and blood pressure, I went to the bed.
I look at the nurse on duty. She took out the needles, the cotton and some other things. Lastly, three empty packs for the blood. Something crossed my mind.
'What? Three packs???? Do I need to donate as much as three packs?'*gulp*
I was scared, okay? Twice, I only donated one pack each time.
So I asked the nurse, when she was preparing the needles for me.
"Errr..Kak, saya kena donate 3 packs ke?"
She smiled and chuckled.
"Tak, 1 pack je. 3 packs biasanya lelaki. Adik kena derma 450ml. Kalau yang kecil sikit 350ml, tapi die kena ikut berat badan." :)
Ohhh. I was SOOOO realived! Hahaha. Stupid.^^;

After Su and I happily donated our red-sticky liquid, (Ummu can't donate cause she didn't get enough sleep LOL) we played some traditional Malay games provided at the hall.
Okay, I admit wholeheartedly that I was really having enjoyable time today! Seriously! ;D

But somehow, everything turned upside down when I got back to my room. The folks said something like, 'Jangan gembira sangat, nanti susah hati kemudian hari' *betul ke ayat ni?*
It really happened on me. We, the evil triangle promised to do the mathematics tutorial together, espcially for me, myself, who is really sucks in maths and I'm truthfully L.A.M.P.I or slow-minded person. (really need to admit that)
When we were dicussing the tutorial, I don't talk too much cause I don't understand the topic.LOL. Probability is the topic that I hate the most during the secondary school.
I want to ask a lot but somehow I was afraid that I will disturb them. Cause I remember my friends told me that I like to ask questions that I REALLY don't have to ask or to know. And the questions usually don't get to them. My fault? IDK.

Continue about the discussion time; and I really hate myself just now. Terkial-kial buat soalan. Padahal member dua orang dah jauh ke depan buat soalan lain. Isk! Lembab okay? Sorry ar wey, aku memang lembab. Sebab tu aku bagai nak mati study for midterm dulu.
I don't get mad to them, I really sad+angry with myself. That's why on the middle of the discussion, I ran off back to my room *cried at one corner* :'(

Oh why oh why, IDK why. Hati dan perasaan berkecamuk sekarang.
Have a meeting right now. Got to go. I will continue this entry if I have the mood to type more. Daaaa~

Bila mana..

2009-08-10T23:26:00.006+08:00

Bila mana kemalasan melampaui batasan
Bila mana kemalasan menguasai diri
Bila mana aku sangat malas nak buat benda yang paling penting sebagai sorang pelajar
Kenape? Kenape?
Kenape la malas sangat nak bukak buku ni?
Ish!!
You MALAS! Shuhhh! Shuhhh!

Rabu ade quiz dow.
Sepatah haram pun aku x baca lagi.
Ape nak jadi? D:
Ni siap bleh main game lagi plak. Adeh~
Insaflah wahai tuan empunya diri yang sedang membebel ni..xDD

Bebelan je..;)

2009-08-09T20:58:00.006+08:00

They're cute. Yes they're. So what?
They have that really nice voices. So what?
They are capable of anything. So what?

Bila fikir2 balik, apa faedah aku dapat?
Banyak masa aku and duit aku terbuang sia2.
Kenal ramai orang? Cara lain pun bleh meet orang gak kan?
Banyak dosa dah aku buat. Menyesal x sudah..

Selalunya aku geram dengan diri aku sendiri.
Insan lemah mudah terpedaya.
Aku manusia biasa yang lemah dengan godaan syaitan.
Ya Allah, tolonglah hambaMu ini.

Tanya balik la kat diri sendiri.
Kenapa x nak stop? Banyak lagi benda lain yang menarik bleh buat.
Ingat lagi pesan member aku sorang ni.
Thanks weyh ingatkan aku.
"Ape kau dapat weyh? Dari benda2 lagha ni? Kau rasa hidup kau sekarang lagi best ke dulu?"
"Ntah la. Aku pun x tau ape yg aku dapat. Kawan baru? And btul la cakap kau. Hidup aku sekarang x sebest dulu."
"Masih blum terlambat. Bila2 nti ada masalah call2 la aku slalu. Nak meetup susah plak"
"Uhuk! InsyaAllah. Ada masa lagi aku call. Nti umur panjang kite jumpa la yek?"

Kadang2 terfikir gak nak je hantar laptop balik rumah.
Tapi bile fikir balik, x ke payah aku nak menaip segala benda alah sbgai seorg s/u?
Haish~ banyak dugaan.

Dengar cerita kawan2 cuti. hurmmm..
Cuti midsem, cuti H1N1, cuti segala macam cuti.
Ada gak yang cadang2 nak gi Genting. Weyh asal x ajak aku? ;)
Aku ingat nak balik minggu ni, tapi aiseyh.. Lupa lak ade Appreciation Nite, Jumaat malam Sabtu. Bertahan lah cik Kina oii untuk lagi seminggu.
Walau hati dah mati bagai nak gile x dapat balik.
Sabar separuh dari iman. ;3

And and..
Bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak bakal tiba x lama lagi. InsyaAllah.
Moga2 kita merebut peluang yang jarang2 skali nak dapat ni dengan memenuhi hari2 kite dgn mendekatiNya.
Pejam celik pejam celik nti dah sebulan.
Waktu tu memang sedih cause bulan yang penuh keberkatan tu pergi.
So, semat kat hati dari sekarang, nak tingkatkan and teguhkan iman.
Bukan setakat time puasa je, tapi sentiasa berterusan, sepanjang hayat.
Tapi bulan Ramadhan ni keberkatan dia berlipat ganda klu kite ikhlas beribadah, subhanallah..
Tengoklah, betapa sayangnya Allah kat hamba2 dia. ;)

Ntah..

2009-08-08T12:34:00.002+08:00

"wey, nape dengan kau?"
"kenapa apa dengan aku? aku okay je..KOT..ntah ar."

Ada some hamba2 Allah ni yang pelik tengok aku. Asal? Sebab aku dah x gila2 cam dulu ek? Pelik ke? Lagi hamba Allah ni pelik tengok aku dah x sehyper dulu. Eh, dulu aku hyper ek? Aku pun tak tau nak explain macam mana. Klu aku membebel pun, ada ke yang faham? Aku rasa aku pernah berceloteh berjela2 kat kawan2, tapi..hurmmm.. mcm mana nak ckp ek. Aku x rasa korg faham.. Yang aku dengar "Oh..." "Ahhh.."
Okay la kot korang jd tukang dengar, tapi..whatever la..

Aku rindu gila kawan2 SESERI aku yang rapat dgn aku..Umi, Wawa, Hanim..aku ingat lagi la weyh kite gi rumah cikgu Rohana, panjat pokok, petik mempelam belakang rumah cikgu. Nasib baik aku hebat time tu.hehehe.And x patah kaki lagi. Tapi seram seyh! xD
Fatin my bestfriend, mcm2 pernah diorg cop kat kite dulu en? Mampos la yg bwk mulut tu.
Bile aku nak hangout dgn kau lagi weyh?
Mira Yong, Ika, Hanim, isk! isk! My buddies. Ingat lagi time kite susah senang menghandle anak buah masing2.
Dengan konfilk macam2 jadi antara kite sesama kite, antara kite dengan pengawas, antara kite and students. Seronok, dapat pengalaman hidup yg jarang sekali nak dapat.

Aku nak balik!
Nape la time2 macam ni ade plak lead train.Ishh~
Sabar je la.
Okay, aku penat..nak gi rehat jap..daaaaaaa~ ^^;

Wondering~

2009-08-07T12:52:00.006+08:00

I wonder, why..kenapa even sekarang masih nak buat kempen derma darah? Bukan ke kes influenza H1N1 makin bertambah? Some of you must be wondering, apa kaitan derma darah dan berjangkit H1N1? Oh well, this is my opinion. See, bila kite derma darah, all the instruments yang nak digunakan tu betul2 sterilized ke? Boleh ke kiter 100% sure all are clean? Kat kampus pun sekarang dengar cerita dah ade 14 kes, and bertambah day by day. Eventhough those are only suspected to be infected, but kiter kena ade precaution steps, deshou? kan? Bukannya aku cakap derma darah tu x elok, and aku xde intention pun nak halang siapa2 pun pergi derma darah..I just wondering..And it's my opinion, OPINION.okay? ^^;
Plus, Ummu said, the truth too. Dalam influenze H1N1 ni merebak, ada lagi 1 penyakit yang turut sama merebak. That is 'mental sickness'. I give a situation, that one person heard about this H1N1 flu, he gets afraid because of that. He takes a lot of steps to prevent himself from being infected. One day he noticed that he has the symptoms just the same as H1N1 patients. Went to meet a doctor, and being suspected. But the truth is, he is not even has the virus in the body. It's just a mentally thought. Selalu sgt fikir diri terkena flu tu, mental or brain assigns to the body to give out the same symptoms as those H1N1 symptoms. So, at the end, buat assumption sendiri yang diri dah terkena influenza A tu. So, I think this mental sickness lagi teruk dari yang kena influenza H1N1.
Be careful with what you are thinking. Think positive, it never fail to help one. And belief in Allah, that He will helps us to get through all these obstacles. InsyaAllah. =)

Where it goes?????

2009-08-05T23:45:00.004+08:00

I hate it
When I've no feeling
I hate it
When I've no mood
I hate it
When I've no desire
I hate it
When I'm emotional

I hate it
Every single thing that need to be done
Every single thing that I need to do
Every single thing happened today

Where is it?
My happy feeling
Where is it?
My hyper-active mood
Where is it?
My desires of everything

I HATE IT!!

RandomT_______T

2009-08-03T22:40:00.005+08:00

I wonder how many silent guests are visiting my blog.
Is there any place where people enjoy something and give appreciation?
Thanks for something?
Is it too hard to type a sentence or even only a few words?
It's annoying.

As long as I wrote, they're only about myself and what I want to write.
My hobbies, my fandoms, all revolve around my life.
Don't expect me more. I'm not a perfect person.
And I'm not that good as you're.
If you don't like or thinking bad about my blog,
feel free to back off!
It really is annoying.

I'm not going to change.
I've another journal and most of the entries from now on will be posted there.
My friends who know where that blog is, feel free to visit there too.
Leaving a comment is truly welcome.

Before I end here and continue at my next blog,
Please be safe boys and girls.
The flu is getting worse.
Apparently we don't actually really know what's happening around us.
New news, another 4 person suspected in our campus, yea.

People with asthma is the most vulnerable.
Don't forget to wear a mask.
And please take a good care of yourself
This issue is really scary.^^;

And here some information I grabbed from online newspaper ::

The symptoms of H1N1 (swine) flu in people are similar to the symptoms of regular human flu and include fever, cough, sore throat, body aches, headache, chills and fatigue. Some people have reported diarrhea and vomiting associated with H1N1 (swine) flu. In the past, severe illness (pneumonia and respiratory failure) and deaths have been reported with H1N1 (swine) flu infection in people. Like seasonal flu, H1N1 (swine) flu may cause a worsening of underlying chronic medical conditions.

In children emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:

Fast breathing or trouble breathing
Bluish or gray skin color
Not drinking enough fluids
Severe or persistent vomiting
Not waking up or not interacting
Being so irritable that the child does not want to be held
Flu-like symptoms improve but then return with fever and worse cough

In adults, emergency warning signs that need urgent medical attention include:

Difficulty breathing or shortness of breath
Pain or pressure in the chest or abdomen
Sudden dizziness
Confusion
Severe or persistent vomiting
Flu-like symptoms improve but then return with fever and worse cough

http://www.pandemicflu.gov/faq/swineflu/04.html

p/s: congrats to Aiba-san for the lead role of the new drama.
He's going to be the father!xD
Barely can't wait for it this coming October.
Su-chan, I'm guessing you must be jumping up and down by now, deshou?=D

Blabla and another FANDOM?>.<

2009-08-02T01:57:00.015+08:00

I wish this leftside sweet guy can listen to my babbling lol.
He's a good listener, seriously!!=)
Am actually so tired. I need a really REALLY beauty rest.
2-3hours of sleep for a week?
Which mean I usually slept at 3/4am and wake up at 6.30am.......T____T
My body can't accept anymore.>.<) I knew it~
Yesterday when I was studying for FIM ( Understanding of Islam ), around 2-3am, *nik already aslept* I heard something outside of my room..~CREEPY-SERIOUSLY!!
Due to my VERY tiredness, I wasn't thinking anything other than to finish my revision. *suka sangat kacau aku study~isk!*
Then around 3.15am, my body start to shiver! D:
My nails turned blue, my sight was blurry.
Okay, after another 10min read I went to sleep.

Like I said, I need a TRUE rest.
But my life never understand the true meaning of R.E.S.T.

-----------------------EDIT------------------------

I should post this entry yesterday, but in the middle of writing this, I was blackout??o__O
That never happen to me!
I can't flashback any single thing happened last night.
What I know, I was concious around 3am and noticed that I was laying goodly on my bed.
But my body was hard to move.
Like it didn't want to cooperate with my thought of to move.
Thanks to Nikmah to help and take a VERY good care of me. I owe you a lot! Isk! Isk!

That served me right cause I'm not taking care of my personal health. Isk!
Alhamdulillah I still can breathe but I'm still weak.^^;

Oh yeah, my Su'ai and Ummu introduced BigBang to me quite a long ago.
At first, I can't accept their songs. Too 'bising'? xD
Not that they're not good, maybe theirs are totally different with Arashi's song, different genre.
It sounds a bit weird to me. *gomen gomen*
But later on, when I started to listen and like Yongbae solo 'Only Look At Me', I went to look for their other songs.
Weirdly happened, I kind of love most of their songs now, eventhough dah pernah dengar sebelum ni. Am a bit slow. Hahahaha.

Orait, let's discover more about the members' of BigBang.~^^

G-Dragon [G드래곤 ]

Stage Name : G-Dragon [G드래곤 ]
Real Name : Kwon Ji Yong [권지용]
Position in Big Bang : Team Leader / Rapper
Pendant: A star with his favorite type of cap on it. ("To become a big star in the music industry")
Birthdate : August 18, 1988
Height : 177cm
Weight : 58kg
Blood-type : A
Family Members : Parents & older sister (Dami)
Education Background : Seoul Korean Traditional Arts Middle & High School
Specialty : Rapping, dancing, beat boxing, composing, singing, Chinese, & English.
Hobby : Drawing & listening to music
Debut : DaeHanMinGook Hip-Hop Flex [2001]
Personality : He is pretty bright. When he is quiet, he is extremely quiet.
He lightens the mood a lot. He leads the group.
His senses are fast, has high self-esteem and likes to be outstanding.
Likes : Fashion, acting, cooking, crispy donuts, dog, cars, the drawing
"is it stars or skeleton", books (poems, mangas, and magazines),
watching cartoons, and himself.
Past Experiences :
When he was in elementary school he was in BoBoBo.
In 2001, he was in Korea’s hip-hop flex
Featured in :
- Perry’s first album
- Lexy’s first album,
- 2002 YG family 2nd album, YMCA baseball program,
- Swi.T's first album.
- Se7en’s 1st and 3rd album
- WheeSung’s first album
- Masta Wu’s 1st album
- Was in YG family’s ONE concert

G-Dragon was a child actor and model and debuted in January of 2001 on the compilation album Daehanmingook Hip-Hop Flex as a rapper. GD got to join YG after he was featured on the "2001 korean hiphop complilation" album as he got public attention as a 13 year old kid rapper and was scouted by YG who said he would have high potentional.
After that, G-Dragon started training for his planned debut as one half of hip-hop duo GDYB (along with Taeyang). During that time, he was featured on songs by Perry, Se7en, Wheesung, YG Family and Masta Wu. He also had cameos in many YG artists's music videos and performed live with Swi.T, Lexy, JinuSean and YG Family. He also performed in concert with Wheesung, Gummy and Se7en and in YG Family's annual One concerts. During that time, he was closest to YG and Perry, who taught him a lot of things, and his relationship with Hyun Suk was even described as "father and son".
The name "G-Dragon" comes from his real name "Ji Yong", because "Yong" means "dragon". "Ji" = "G"

GDYB released 2 songs on YG Family's second album. In 2004, they were in the listing of YG new faces and scheduled to debut that year. However, a few months later, Hyun Suk announced that their debut was canceled in favor of forming a four-to-six-member group. It took until 2006 for Big Bang to be officially announced, via the Big Bang Documentary reality show. Meanwhile GDYB were featured on Se7en's album and performed with him at the World Cup.

After graduating high school, he decided to wait a year before applying to college, and took his college entrance examinations in the fall of 2007.
G-Dragon is Big Bang's leader, but he's also listed as both rapper and vocalist, and has been producing Big Bang's releases (with Hyun Suk) since the beginning. He also wrote lots of lyrics and recently started songwriting and arranging.

Tae Yang [태양]

Stage names : Tae Yang [태양] , Sol
Used to be Known as : YB Taekwon [YB 태권]
Real Name : Dong Young Bae 동영배
Position in Big Bang : Vocalist
Pendant: "YB" with a crown over it. ("To become the best in the music industry")
Birthdate : May 18, 1988
Height : 174cm
Weight : 56kg
Blood-type : AB
Education: Daejin University in Theater & Film (starting in 2008)
Family Members : Parents & older brother (Hyun Bae)
Specialty : Rapping, dancing, beat boxing, singing, & foreign languages (Japanese & Chinese).
Hobby : Gardening, listening to music, & watching TV
Debut : YG Family 2nd Album [2002]
Personality : Does his best in everything, over-achiever.
Doesn’t like to fight, he talks about his problem with the opponent.
He listens to you well and thinks about what he is going to say before he says anything.
Likes : church, summer, clothes, games, and mangas.
Musicians he admires : Usher, Omarion, Justin Timberlake
Past Experiences : Since 5th grade he went to an acting class.
Auditioned for JinuSean’s music video.
Was in the music video A-yo as a mini JinuSean.
Auditioned for YG after meeting JinuSean
2002 He was in Swit’s 1st album, YG family’s 2nd album
2003 WheeSung’s 2nd album, Masta Wu’s 1st album
2004 Lexy’s 1st album
2006 Se7en’s 3rd album and he was in YG family’s ONE concert.

Taeyang was a child actor starting in 5th grade. He was recruited at the same time as G-Dragon, at the age of 13 to play the part of mini Sean in the A-Yo MV. After that, he auditioned to join YG Family, having been impressed by JinuSean. His chosen stage name was YB Taekwon, which is either a reference to JinuSean's Taekwon V album or to the giant robot Taekwon V.

His rapping debut was in YG Family's second album in 2002. In 2003, he participated in Wheesung's second album, rapping on the track Player. He performed with JinuSean, Swi.T, Lexy, Masta Wu, Se7en and YG Family, and took part in Wheesung, Gummy, Se7en and YG Family's One concerts.

He was scheduled to debut with G-Dragon as GDYB (for G-Dragon & YB Taekwon) in 2004, but never debuted or released an album. Hyun Suk announced that their debut was canceled in favor of forming a four-to-six-member group.

Even though he'd previously trained to be a rapper and wanted to become one, he debuted in Big Bang as a singer. He's been studying Japanese since 2004, in preparation for Big Bang's Japanese debut. After graduating high school, he and G-Dragon decided to take a year off before applying for college. He has been accepted at Daejin University in theater and film for 2008, and has mentioned wanting to become an actor.

His first kiss was during the filming of the Ma Girl music video, when the actress got carried away and kissed him for real.

T.O.P

Stage Name : T.O.P
Real Name : Choi Seung Hyun [최승현]
Also Known As : Tempo
Position in Big Bang : Rapper
Pendant: A hand holding a megaphone. ("To inspire people with his voice and become big")
Birthdate : November 4, 1987
Height : 181cm
Weight : 65kg
Blood-type : B
Education : Seoul Art College [Majoring in Musical] Dangook University in Theater & Film (starting 2008)
Specialty : Rap, beat box, composing
Hobby : reading & swimming
Personality : He speaks well, and he is stubborn.
He likes to be the leader of things and speaks his mind. Shy, and he thinks he is cute.
Likes : theatrical performances, musicals, and fashion design
Musicians he admires: Usher, Omarion, JAY-Z, and B2K
Past Experiences :
KBS 'we like' radio - He won the rap battle in 2003
Performed at a club in Gangnam; 2002 - 2005
Performed with STARZ in 2004

Even though Big Bang is listed as his debut, TOP has been rapping since middle school under the name Tempo. He started out doing gigs in underground clubs, sometimes with an older friend of his, NBK Gray. They never signed to any label or released an album, but a song of theirs, Buckwild, is floating around in mp3 format. He won KBS Radio's "Rap Battle" in 2003.

His new stage name, T.O.P, was chosen by Se7en. Unlike the rest of Big Bang, TOP hasn't trained to be a singer.
He's very charismatic and funny and he often gets sent on TV shows alone, either as a guest or MC. In August 2007, he started acting in the drama I Am Sam. In summer 2007, he was also featured as an actor in Red Roc's Hello MV.

Dae Sung [대성]

Stage Name : D-Lite, Dae Sung [대성]
Real Name : Kang Dae Sung [강대성]
Position in Big Bang : Vocalist
Pendant: The earth held between headphones. ("To let the whole world listen to your music")
Family: Parents, older sister (Bora)
Birthdate : April 26, 1989
Height : 178cm
Weight : 63kg
Education: KyeongIn High School
Specialty : Singing
Personality : Always bright, does his best in everything, when he’s around other people he lightens the mood.
Likes : rap, beat box, and cooling
Musicians he admires : Usher, Omarion, Ne-Yo, and Wheesung.
Determination : I'll work my hardest and become the best.

Dae Sung was recruited in an audition, and even though he was jokingly known as "unpretty boy" among the staff, he turned out to be one of the most popular members. During training, he got to do vocal training with Wheesung, who's one of his favorite artists.

While training, he was diagnosed with vocal cord nodules, which are common among singers and caused by strain on the vocal cords. They got worse in the fall of 2006 and he had to undergo treatment soon before the release of Big Bang's second single. Thankfully, Gummy, who had experienced similar problems, helped Dae Sung recover and manage his condition, and they've been friends ever since.
Dae Sung is a big fan of the Japanese cartoon Doraemon and has lots of Doraemon items, from cellphone charms to boxers to chopsticks. He's also known as a comedy genius for his imitations, sense of humor and puns.

In April 2007, Dae Sung decided to quit high school to be able to focus full-time on Big Bang, but expressed a desire to pass his college entrance exams sometime in the future.
In October 2007, Dae Sung was featured in singer Nemo's "Ije, Oori..." (이제,우리..) digital single. This was the first M-Boat/YG collaboration since the split of their partnership some months earlier.

Seung Ri [승리]

Stage name : V, Victory, V.I, Seung Ri [승리]
Real Name : Lee Seung Hyun [이승현]
Position in Big Bang: Vocalist
Pendant: A flag with a V on it, on a disc with a ring around it. ("A new style of music set on the music industry")
Birthdate : December 12, 1990
Height : 176cm
Weight : 60kg
Blood type: A
Family Members : Parents & younger sister
Specialty : Singing, dancing, & choreographing.
Personality : Very strong, for the youngest member of the group he is pretty mature,
he is very shy and keeps a lot of things to himself.
Likes : foreign languages
Musicians he admires: Justin Timberlake and Omarion.
Determination : Hwaiting! I cannot return home.
Past Experiences :
M.net Battle of Shinhwa
June - August 2005
Was in Kwangju dance team “Il Hwa”
August 2003 - January 2005

Seung Ri is from Kwangjoo, the sixth major city in Korea. As we can see in the Big Bang Documentary, it's quite a long commute between the two. Before Big Bang, he was a member of Ilhwan, a Kwangjoo dance team.

In summer 2005, Seung Ri appeared on an episode of Battle Shinhwa, a TV show to find the second Shinhwa (a famous boyband) through auditions. The band Battle is the result of that TV show. In the thirteenth episode, he was cut because his singing wasn't impressive enough, even though his dancing was.

During a phone conversation with Yang Hyun Shuk said " Lee Seung Hyun's outstanding dance skills is what earned him a position in YG " and " Lee Seung Hyun has an outstanding ability to create his own dance routines. When I saw his self created dance performance, I was shocked."

Lee Seung Hyun was never given vocal lessons until he entered YG Entertainment.

See how funny they can be?xD
I love GD outcome..hahaha..lol

Credit to

Orange @ popcornfor2
Big Bang Fanclub Thailand
ygbigbang.com
ygbigbang fan cafe
yesasia.com
soompi
Jess @ YGBB
1tymforyourmind @ YGBB
Chikiboom @ YGBB

bio credit to: ygbounce.com
the7REAL@soompi

Wohh~Icecream!!xD yummy yummy!

Why TODAY??

2009-07-18T22:59:00.004+08:00

Why TODAY? Tell me WHY? Kenapa time aku balik la macam2 events ade.. I was just knew from Lya that MU vs Malaysia baru je tadi. And by that time, I was in my way get back to my hometown!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Ummu!!! Baru je planning nak g tgok tapi, urghhhh!!!
Kecewanya!!! Dah la dulu time Chelsea datang sini pun x dapat pergi. Isk Isk Isk. :((
Btw, MU won again. Dah agak dah.
I'm off. Need to calm myself down.
Sakuraibabai~

Silly feeling~

2009-07-17T07:32:00.002+08:00

BEING EMOTIONAL IS STUPID!!!!
Enough of that..

YATTA!!!!^o^

2009-07-16T17:14:00.003+08:00

Yayy!
Quizzes dah habis!xD
Just wait for the results...
Can't wait for tomorrow bio lab, nak main DARAH!~^^
And and tomorrow gak gi jalan2 with my sis.
It's been a long time we haven't go out together. About 3 months I guess. :3
Hopefully this time she's the one who'll treat for the meals.x)
Plus the day after tomorrow, Yatta!!!!!!!!*dances*
I'm going back to my lovely hometown!!
Missing my parents and Tommy (my cat lol.xD)..
Wohooo~ It'll be me, my parents and one of my big brothers only..
Guess what? It's time for me to meng'gedik' kat rumah dgn mak and abah..xD
Hahahaha. My sis was in hols at home for about 3 months and I'm kinda jelous with her..Geshhhh!
Orait enough said~
Nak gi makan nasi lemak the best I've ever taste..
Sakuraibabai~~^^;